fun

heex! went to watch narnia n went escape todae!! hahax. it was a long bt fun day..hahax, went tm to watch narnia, nt bad, in fact i think it was gd larhz, it's definitely better den king kong..hahax. and hmm..i cried u noe..how?! hahax, at e part when aslan was humiliated den he die, den his corpse dere so lonely..yah..tt's e part..hmm..den oh yes!! tang and kirstie screamed!! hahax, i think e whole cinema can hear her..hahax, so loud..hahax. den me n kirstie seems to caught e laughing gas and we hahahahahahaha..hahax, den kirstie scream too..bt her's nt tt loud..hahax.. den we went pasir ris escape theme park!! when we reached, it starts to drizzle, bt luckily, it lasted for a few minutes, den we went in n yah, went to sit flipper..hahax, it was so so so fun..hahaxhahax..haha, den we requsted to sit again, bt too bad lah, gt too many pple qeueing..hahax..we sat pirate ship too..hahax, we were at e center few rows, hahax, tho i wanted to sit last row, bt taken up n we dun wanna waste time waiting..hahax, nt baad larh, bt e second time we sat, me n kirtie went 2nd last row, n IT WAS COOL!! IT WAS SO MUCH MORE FUN!!! hahax, pau n tang shld join us..hahax. den when it went up, both of us looked at each other n we screamed when it came now, as if we saw ghost..hahax..oh yes, toking abt ghost, we went in to e haunted hse, n i guess we were e onli ones tt made it thru t whole hse..it was so so so..i dunnoe wad to say..hahax, inside was pitch dark n i was so so scared tt i jus shut my eyes, grabbed on to them n just follow them thru..think the " ghosts" will be so so scared of pau n kirstie..their high-pitched everlasting scream scared them off n dey din boo both of them..hahax..den a few times when i wanted to open my eyes, den when i open my eyes, it was so dark i din see anything, so i might as well shut my eyes..hahax, den smthin drop or wad lah den i culdnt move..den i scream..hahaxx..and den one of them was like pulling my hair and went: grrr.. haha..den tt was once, i wanted to grab pau [supposedly she n kirstie were behind me n tang bt dey went infront of us] hahax, den i grabbed a hand bt it doesnt feels like pau's hand, think it was one of e "ghosts" hand..hahax.. poor him..hahax..den we managed to get out..it was so tiring..hahax, and sore throat already..hahaxx..we went to sit wet n wild too..hahax..den when it's our turn, when tang n pau was up dere, waiting to go down at e first slide, e machine jus stops n den me n kirstie was at e foot of e slope..and..yah, it was scary, smthing wrong wif e system or wad lah..den dey ask us to come back later..hahax. it was so so scary..heex. den we went back, sat n yes. it was cool, nice, i dunnoe how to say..hahax..den we were so hyper afta tt, we took anuder ride of it, den now, change partners, chnage to pau n kirs, me n tang. hahax. pau n kirs went up, we behind, culd her their hig'-pitched scream thruout..hahax. so funny..hahax. den we went for go-kart oso, bt e bad thing abt it was e waiting part, we waited 50 minutes jus for 3 round of it..hahax, bt it was e first time in my life when i drive..hahaxx..we took e advanced track smmore..so scared..hahax..n den erm..yah, going now e slope, first time i brake alot of times, den 2nd time, i brake once, 3rd, i din brake!! it was like going so so so fast..hahax. bt it was a great drive..hahax..we took e superman thingy oso, it was so giddy..hahax, jus turning n turning, bt nt bad larhz..den yep, we end off with e flipper. hahax, e thing repeated twice..meaning it went twice. like it stop, one round is over, den it went anudder round again..hahax. den we went to bustop without tang larhz..cos her mama fetched her, den me, kirs n pau took 17..we felt so so giddy..hahax.even now still abit giddy...hahax..yep, tok so much things on bus, n yah, din really eat dinner, time now is 12.23am..happy bdae farah!! haha..feeling rather hungry..hmm..byebyezz!!

wad a long day :(

todae..went for tt prac n went to search for costumes..it's tiring teaching **niors..haix, jus rather tires larhz, and dey look so blur..nt confident AT ALL. and haiz, thot i was rather fierce todae..sorry..hahax..and den we meet sam at bugis and went to shop n shop n shop, saw thousands of clothers bt none of them suits us, i'm glad tt everyone was rather particular abt e costumes, bt i was like so so tired..haix..hahax..lolx..den try n try n try..think n think n think..hahax, all of us were very tired nt in a very gd mood..hahax..bt, very tired larhz..hmm, was doing heymaths n kinda finish emaths part 1 bt e rest haven start yet, hafta do todae, if nt, tml go out den no time to do le..eeyeh, cant stand it, i'm so slack..hahax..oh yes!! received sarah's present, u can say tt i was touched..hahax..it was so sweet, especially e badge..hahax, it was very very very nice of u sarah..hahax, thanku..

oh yes!! and i decided..hahax, try my best nt to say 'wadeva' cos it sounds rather rude..and decided to tok to HUEVA tt comes online, no matter hu is tt person..hahax..cos it seems very anti social if i dun. hahax, bt wont tok much i guess. hahax. lolx..mm..byez!!

heex

came back frm dance prac..quite nice lah, e whole song kinda completed, jus tt we really need to whole grp to practise n we need to coordinate..e whole thing is very messy now, bt at least we completed it..hahax, den feel rather bad..cos..yah, u all shld noe, haix. hahax, anyway, so surprised tt i wasnt pissed at all..yes, at all. i thot i wuld be..hahax, and all of them gave tt look..hahax. nvm..den ah!!! bruises everywhere!!! more n more..and it hurts kkz..and e old bruises are getting bigger n bigger n sam hurt herself todae, i dun like seeing pple injured cos of dance..bt her thing onli scratch lahz..so nt tt bad..hahax. and kirstie!! she's fair, so e bruises look so so so painful..i dunnoe, so scary..hahax, lucky i'm nt fair [i'm nt unfair..heex..] haha..and me n kirstie is so...you mo qi...we tok e same thing at e same time..do e same thing at e same time n even react e same thing at e same time!! haha..it's nice..haha..even toking on msn like now..we're toking e same thing..hahax..lolx..and yeah!! friday..hope it'll be nice..enjoy ourselves for e very last time..hahax..anyone wants join me, tang n kirstie?? hahax..byez!!

watched kk, gt over wif * .[think so, nt sure] hmm..

okie..watched kingkong yesterday wif my parents, reached home abt 1am. nt bad lahz, hahax, kingkong has 4 scratches on e right side of his back..hahax. lolx. anyway, i cant believe i cried, hahax. shant say anymore, some haven watch yet. den..hmm..so tired, mentally n physicaly, almost all e joints are twisted..haha..and bruises everywhere, left knee got 3 patch, left knee 2..haiz..hahahax. it'sworth it, den homework all not done! haven study also, haiz..hahax..anyway, dance..almost done bt our coordination is horrible..hahax. with e useless dance ic, wad to do?! haiz..e dance ic is me..haix..like other pple doing so much stuff den i so..useless, i'm sorry. and todae wanted to go hq n filza waited for me, den in e end din go, argh..i feel so..bad, like she waited for so long. haix..sorry, and sorry. i'm so..haix..i feel so useless. bt i'll jia you. thnks. and yah lah, sorry..anyway, erm..things are happening so fast..hahax..nvm..ang oh yes! i gt over my *..hahax!!! so happy, finally..hope so. heex.yeah!! oh yah, went bedok with soot todae and we ate purple mr softee..hahax, it was nice! and we sat n while walking to e chairs, soot gt "stuck to grd" twice..like how she gt "stuck to cement" at pp..haha..quite fun lah, bt so bored..a bit contradicting horh, hahax, nvm. den..ate quite some stuffs..tai wan xiang chang!!! hahax, so nice..bedok got pasa malam. hahax, watching narnia soon, hopefully we can find a date..hahax..cant really rmb wad i wanted to blog. bb.

lonely

yoz..haiz..feeling..i dunnoe..jus nt feeling gd. haha..haiz..feeling depressed, lonely, tired..i dunnoe lah. haiz..ooh, watched some show jus now and it says: when u're feeling down:

imagine urself walking along this long long beach, with very very clear waters..e sun shining at u..u're walking along e very fine sand..carefree-ly.. if u're feeling tired..simply lie down..take a gd rest..

perhaps..it really works..when u're feeling tired mentally..hmm..how i wish i can read pple's mind..haiz..tang said let it be..haha, onli tang noes me now..haha..thanks tang. muahahaha..shant stop toking. bb!

xmas..

hmm, merry christmas!! haha..christmas..dunnoe why bt i lik dis yr's christmas..wonder why too, maybe it's more like a christmas?? aiyah, nvm, dun even noe wad i toking. haiz..lonely. nvm..haha, 25/12/05<< msges sent here n dere. haha..24/12/05, 4th uncle's family came our hse n had a kinda like gathering n wad, den we watched some scary show..haha, den hmm..aiyah, it was nice lah. jus..nice. haiz..dun think i've gt anything else to say. bye bye..
:( lonely..

wonderful!

hahaha! came back frm tanglin's hse at abt 1050pm..so late rite..haha, to me, it is late lah. went for squad gathering..haha, exchange resents n stuffs like tt, kinda like celebrating xmas. haha. it was great, and laughing gas evolved arnd us especially me n kirstie!! haha, we laugh non-stop till our faces turn purple!! omg!! haha..over small stuffs smmore. haha. ooh, thot it will take like 1 hour to reach so i board e bus at 10am n i reached tang's hse at 1025am..when we were supposed to meet at 11am..haha, i was so so early, den tang n me sat at playgrd dere n tok till 11am, den go watch tv den..yah..and we heard soot's , kirs's n cera's scream far far away..we were watching dis comedy den heard familiar shrieks. haha..den dey came, n it was so noisy!! haha..and kirite was "mourning" over her vcd e pianist..haha, she wanted to watch it so much tt all she culd say was pianist pianist n pianist..haha..so poor thing..muahaha! lolx. anyway, den we practise dance n had a hard time getting e music started..n we practise n did oni a few steps..hmm. den went up to tang's room to watch "house of wax". it says on e disc: RESTRICTED haha..we realised it afta watching..so too bad..it was pretty disgusting..n i dun like watching it wif my squadmates..cera will also: aie, wrong 1st aid lah, dey shld hurry stop e bleeding. [haha] tang will go: ah!! so, is dis e gd twin or bad twin?! i'm scared! [lolx] den soot will jus scream rite into my ear n hide behind me..haha..den kirstie will be like: omg,omg,omg. ah!!! [hahahaha] n den pau (came when show was finishing) will be like: omgdness. i seriously think dis is n16, or m18, or ra. n stop saying tt word!! aiyoh! AH! n sam (watched it b4) will be like answering their qns n: u watch urself lah!
haha..haiz..my squadmates..hahaha..and i was like thinking.if i watch tt with b3, e gals will be like: eeeeeeeekkk...i dun want to watch already! ah!!! and e guys will be like: aww..disgusting, bt cool, man.
hahaha..den yep..e show was rather disgusting..bt i guess it was QUITE nice..quite..haha..den show finally ended n we went down to watch wan quan yu le..haha..n sam ate her lunch at 530pm..haha, n our dinner at abt 630..haha..we actually played mahjoong..and we felt so auntie..especially tang!!! muahahahaha!!!!!! lolx..
and den we ate n ate n ate until everyone was bloated! haiz..den we played mahjoong, watch tv den get into sm games..e water game..where we had to drink max 450ml of water if u lose/get e smallest card. haha. poor kirstie..haha..n me 2! haha..it was so so eeeek..all of us felt like puking..haha.. we exchange presents too n we kept getting our own presents, so we had to re-draw n re-draw n re-draw...haha. finally, all of us got e presents n haha, i gt simin's present!! chocolate!! haha..nice one!! i bought rocher , soot got my present..haha. we enjoyed..den yah, watched sm shows n struggled whether to stay over a not..bt we scared our parents nt happy, so all of us went home. heex..haha..nice gathering.. :) :) :)

lalala

yoz..went sch for trng n tt prac..missed e bus n need to wait for like so long which means i'm late..ooh..and b4 tt, i went in e lift n den i forgot to press 1st floor den e lift went down n den e door cannot open den i press all e lift buttons dere den yah..e lift jus went up n down without opening e door! haha..start to panik a bit den yah..nt so bad lah..den it opens at e 9th floor den this guy walks in n yah..if i had a pin, i wuld drop it. it's like so silent n yah. on da bus, so shy..haha..jr went up bus, den i was like so shocked lar. aiyo. den reach sch n yah..nothing unusual happen lah, den trng, ok, quite boring lah..haha, e onli -a bit fun- part was when everyone found me nt wet after water games den no matter where i go, smone will be found with either a big pail or several water bombs on hand aiming me..haha, everyone was so wet except me, den run n run..den finally, jia en came with big pail of water, and i was wet..haha..wanted to make her wetter bt she was taking care of csualty so nvm lah..haha. den i ask filza to be wet with me..haha, with e pail of water tt i filled. haha, rather -ahem- haha. den tt prac, rather constructive today, almost complete e dance. and i thot it was supposed to end at 530, bt dey said 430, so left sec 3s. haha. hmm, feel so useless lah, for dance. haiz..soot n cera so bang, den me.. haiz..den song, yep, finish e harmonisation. haven try tt part yet. haha. den painter came n said tt dey need to paint e rcr, want us to clear e stuff leaning agnst wall, sigh, dey said by friday, den filza dey all say by thurs, den pau, fil n simin cleared e stuff. ok. gd job! sry, din help, at dance mah, nvm. sry. ooh, and during dance, i wanted to sit on bench den realise got lizard den i walked past, look down n it was on my trackpants!! i cant believe i din scream , din jump, nt tt scared, din panik. i threw my 100-plusdown my trackpants n baby lizard went to e floor! yeah! haha. n tt sam arh..run until 2-3 metre away..haha..bt she wanted to help lah. haha. den practise dance, me n kirstie getting more n more you mo qi, more coordinated now, haha. n soot was trying to explain smthings to us, n she was lik: aiyah, nvm , u all wont understand" bt i understood, so i said i understand, n she was like so amuzed. haha, " why u understand" haha..as if she doesnt want pple to understand. haha, den it was quite fun lah, soot n cera did some awkward steps n den dey did succeed bt their face was like..going to burst..haha. [no strength] haha..den went home. quite tired. -difficulty in moving- haha, cos twisted my neck, right arm, right leg, left fingers, left knee. right ankle. haiz..haha..bt like wad sooming says, it's worth it. haha. bb!

headache

hmm..sorry..haha..i say sorry for wad. nvm lah, i noe it myself. hmm.. came back frm ulp gathering..out of 100+ pple in ulp, onli 10 went..tink it's too far back frm ulp le..hmm..anyway, dun really want to go in e morning bt pau was like : " i leg injured..bandage nicely le den dun go.." haha..so i went..den leave early cos of pau again..haha..din noe i culd be tt nice..haha..den hmm..i lost my bet. haha, i dun think i lost anyway. cos we meant diff things..haha..bt i was more to e losing side..wanted to and cannot is different lorh..hahahaha, i kinda feel very bad betting over such things. anyway, mm, todae's gathering, okie lah, not bad..haha..cycled, sat at e stone thingy, chat, played with water..sand, ate n haha..squeeze, squeeze..mm..and here okay lah, dun think i going for my b3 outing..hmm, go n have fun lah. haha..chatted. know a lot of hu like hu n wadeva..haha..it was so funny, den sufing online den * suddenly called n i was like "huh!" haha..wad a shock! and yah, true, so distant on phone. hahahaha. hmm, yep, tt's all. den sam, soot, kirstie went cera's hse to plan dance. i'm feeling so guity now..gosh..hmm, anyway, yep, dey went to shop for clothes also. a bit ex lah, bt i think it's nice, so i dun mind paying since sec 1 already pay so much..haha..hmm, feel so bad nt joining them, bt i din noe. sigh, actually i think i do noe cos i think i heard sam saying like she's going cera's hse, den i din probe further also lah. myfault. and yah, recently, sch reopening. things still all nt done. so busy, cant stand myself! so many things to do. fd.uniform.badges.boots.berets.camp.amaths.chem.heymaths.physics.dance.song.fd,fd,fd,fd,fd,dance,dance,dance,dance!!! ah! jus withdrew from trad dance. kinda feel bad cos it's my fault for being so slack lah. and i argh!!!!!!!!!!! haiz..nvm. dun wry, relax. haha. [i'm telling myself] hahahaha. hmm..tml got trng, haven think of my station stuff yet, dance, haven finish yet. called xy to brng disc bt she din pick up phone. haiz, hope they'll bring tml. hopefully, aiyah, dey will one lah. hmm..leg hurts.
haiz..all these r giving me headache. [mentally+physically] sigh, things will get better. haha. gd thing sec 1s' accred push to next yr, if nt i'll die..cant take another blow..6 bad things of " only tkgs pple..." hmm, judging their standard..nx yr fdic will have a great headache. hmm..dun think sec 2s' start farewell already..shi bai..hope our farewell turns out gd. it better turn out gd. haha. hmm..decided..oh yes!!! omg! i jus rmb!!!!!! oh dear dear dear, tml will rece=ruit more sec 1s to be in fdc..cos i want fdc to be a learning experience for them n not onli a "competition" . so, tml..hmm..ok. settled some stuff in my mind. hahahahaha. bb!

pulau ubin!

yoz..haha, jus finished celebrating papa's birtday..we went pulau ubin jus now..n on e boat..memories flash back..haha, thot of kayaking tt period of time..when we were avoiding e waves by boats n now i'm e one on e boat causing all dose big waves..haha..and e view was magnificent. a perfect combination of sea, land n sea..wonderful. n too lazy to type already lah. haha. goin for dance tml n collecting ulp t-shirts!!! haha..n i haven finish e chorus!! oh no..cant do it now cos dere's like so many pple at home, actually onli 3..haha..+ my cat! tt'll be 4..hmm. bb!

pulau ubin!

yoz..haha, jus finished celebrating papa's birtday..we went pulau ubin jus now..n on e boat..memories flash back..haha, thot of kayaking tt period of time..when we were avoiding e waves by boats n now i'm e one on e boat causing all dose big waves..haha..and e view was magnificent. a perfect combination of sea, land n sea..wonderful. n too lazy to type already lah. haha. goin for dance tml n collecting ulp t-shirts!!! haha..n i haven finish e chorus!! oh no..cant do it now cos dere's like so many pple at home, actually onli 3..haha..+ my cat! tt'll be 4..hmm. oh yes!!! met some cats dere. dey were so cute den i give them jacob..haha..so delicious..haha..dey look so so cute..i was undescribably contented looking at their faces n..yah..hahahaha. den went to eat n i ate coconut!!!! it was like so so nice..haha..den watch e sunset while eating den go beach..it was so so cold..haha.. reminds me of obs again..oh, i saw obs camp 2 or 3..cant really tell bt definitely nt my camp..haha..nice. bb!

argh..scared..

ah!!! jus post my previous post n now..it's..3.16am..argh!!! no inspirations already n now i'm rather scared/ cos it's lik..it's in e wee hours of e night..n hmm..i'm scared!!! smone msg me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh..smone msg me now..i noe my squadmates r all asleep..i assure u..haha..haiz..still got other rc pple..msg me lah..xiqing..des..sarah..or hueva lah..i dun care..i'm like so..haha..so scared now..heex. no inspiration already how?! argh!!!!!!!! and my dad isnt home, later he reach home, he'll be like..hmm..why arent u asleep yet n he'll keep me company i think, i mean it's nice bt i cant cheoreograph infront of pple..hueva it is..maybe infront of my cat lah..haha..bt nt to anyone. feeling so..argh..i'm still scared..cos it's 3+...it's known to be e wee hours of e night rite..haha..i'm scared okay! argh..and i cant do anything now except star infront of e comp n type n type n type..haha..n apparently, i guess my cat is awake..bt if i bring her out, she'l start looking all over for food n i cant concentrate den..argh..i'm irritated by myself..i'm toking nonsense. bt pls excuse me. i'm scared. wad shld i do now?! i dun tink i'll be able to go back to dance now..tink i go watch tv n den at 4.15am den come back to comp, it need a rest too. haha. shall leave now, at least e tv can make some noise to chase away my timidness. haha, is dere such a word? hmm..shall go off le. come back later. oh no, u all will see lotsa posts regarding e same thing. haha. shall go watch some show perhaps? oh no. i'm crapping again. brb! :) :) :)

omg

hi pple. e time now is 2.53am. waa..so "early" rite?! ah..i'm feeling so so tired now..or rather very hot n stuffy..i'm cheoreographing dance now..so tired!!! ah..dancing ovr n ovr again!!! ah.ah.ah. let me catch my breadth first, decided to post cos lik tt den can i rest mah..haha, i want to puke already lah. my great idea of drinking milk while dancing. haiz. haha, bt i feel grat now, at least i'm doin stuff n dun tink i'm gonna sleep now..i feel so..ee...i need a bath bt obviously nt now..so my onli choice is to dance till morning. ah! nice. haha. guess i could be e onli one awake now??
haha. need to take a rest if nt i'll really puke..aaahhh!!! hope my effort diesnt go down e draain. hmm...wont one lah, as long as i got put in effort, sure wont one. ritez?! haha..i can do it! i have confidence! haha..almost finishing chorus n hmm..preferably, finish chorus bt today..or rather b4 daybreak..haha..still have abt less than 10 seconds for me to be done with chorus!!! yeah!!! once i'm done with chorus.. i onli have to work on 2 more verses n den i'll be done with my part!!!! ah.....hah! haha..getting hyper now...oops..hmm..afta done wif chorus still have 2 more verses, sounds rather short bt it's very very long n smmore these 2 parts cannot be boring. this is e time where we unlease our skills, dun cannot play play arh..haha..how i wish anyone can msg me now..i'll be over e moon! haha..cos at least i will noe t smone is awake too..haha. bt doubt it'll happen...it's 3.03 am now..cool. haha..bt at least i'm staying up for reasons..haha..oh ho..toking crabs..fishes..lobsters..prawns..still got wad?? aiyah.. hyper me now. haha. ok! shld be rest enuff already, if nt later my spirit dampens n den no mood to dance..haha..n oh yah, can i say smthing?? i feel like kicking sm juniors out of this dance..i noe it's bad bt i assure u dey wont be able to do e steps..hmm..judging frm e style of my steps, i think it's impossible for sm of them..for ***** , i have confidence in her. bt for *******, i dun tink so..bt i tink she still got hope. at least will have e spirit dere. so..e other 2..i dun tink dey can..n i noe cera will support me strongly..haha..she cant wait to do tt rite, cera?! haha..anyway, i tink i might..bt den dey'll haf no items..haiz..tt's where e troubles bt tt one can solve one rite?!..haha..hopefully..hmm..might be back later to post again! cos i'm really bored. unless smone toks to me now! haha..i'll be super duper happy! haha.. anyway..dun feel lik getting up. bt..i must get up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok. i'm up. tok later. byebye :) :) :)

shld i?

shld i?? i dunnoe bt i dunwant to start toking unless smone toks. hmm, feel so irritated by myself. argh. haiz..anyway, i'm bored. eeyeh. i wan to ...hmm. control...haha. nt really in e mood to do dance now bt dun wry, i will. bt nt now. later. went out jus now n i was so hungry tt i almost felt like fainting. nv have i due to hunger den like tt b4. last time sick n during fd have like tt b4..but due to hunger. 1st time. haiz. getting weaker :( :( :( haha.
anyway, eeyeh. tok leh, i'm so so bored now. it's jus beside me now, how i wish i tring..haiz. haha. i dun think u all will understand wad i toking bt nvm, tt's e purpose. hahahaha. was so amazed when and yah..i dun mind everyday cos i really very bored one and i like to reply..and kinda happy also lah, dun really noe why, hahahahaha. hmm..doubt u all understand. hahaha. wait for next time lah, gal. heex. hmm. tt's abt all. byebye!

wad's my thoughts?

hmm..nt feeeling happy now, dunnoe why also. anyway, hmm. feeling rather vexed now. haiz..dance dance dance..fd fd fd.. i want to become a junior. i dun wanna do all these things. i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan. i dun want all these. i dun wan to take care of all these things. it's such a heavy burden. *cries* we have so many things to care. why why why. i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan. i've always acted strong. i'm suffocating. *cries* i want to complete dance by today. sec 1s' fd. ah!! go in left ear come out right ear. haiz..haha. bt smtimes, there r fun things tt make me forget abt all these n relax!! haha..like toking to pple. haha. especially late at night. haha. like e whole world is asleep except for us. haha. hmm. shall buck up! and haha..feeling happier now..toking to cera n kinda feel great tt she's toking abt all these to me..haha. buck up, sotong! haha..bb!

oh yes! e time of e posts are all wrong, bt i guess e date shld be correct. now is 6:37pm.

fd

yoyo..jus return frm fd prac. so tired. was having a headache bt managed to tahan til afternoon. and i bought my books!!! haha. leg so tired now..hmm.. oh yah! go tag my board!! haha. set up le. thanks to pau n my laziness. haha. hmm.. gonna collect ulp t-shirts on 19/12/05!!! haha..finally... and rc tee gonna make also. haiz, so many things to do, think we withdrawing frm trad dance bt i feel rather unwilling to bt for e sake of modern dance getting into finals, i think we shld. i mean like jus focus on 1 dance rather den have 2 and both nt gd. i'd rther have onli 1 gd one. hmm. bt anyway, still need to ask pple lah..hmm..feel so..giving a chance away..bt hu ask me so slack. haiz. it's 2 late to regret. nvm lah. hmm.. today's fd, quite ok lah. was sick so i made use of this chance to let m n x release their potential..bt i think...hmm..okkz lah. bt nt very gd..shld be like atiqah..anyway. dey very competitive today..kinda sense it. and x was grew rather impatience teaching, bt cos i think m grew a bit too..hmm. u all shld noe. we discuss b4. bt soot sae no, so nt very sure also, abt 5 more months b4 i officially leave e post n i dun want it to happen. i struggled 3 long yrs n den now..haiz..everything is lik goin so fast. i dun want to leave my post. haiz..still no idea hu to pass to, smtimes think it's m, smtimes x..i dun noe. gonna haf a very very hard time. how?? haiz..and qm also. haix. guess everyone is having prob rite. sigh!! nvm..anyway, next week trng shld can have more pple n shld be able to hit 10. i noe still rather pathetic bt at least better than 2 rite.. haha. so little juniors. haiz. hmm.. and today had a small small talk wif them cos everyone was very tired. den yah. make use of e chance to bond. haha. and me n soot wanted to play basketball bt rcr nt open, so no key, so no ball, so cannot play basketball, so a bit a bit a bit a bit a bit upset by it. bt nvm lah..hmm. :) :) :) and den we went home on 197 n soot was debating whether to get off at pp or at bedok..den i told her 15 is here n so she got off at e stop after pp. den we said bye n e chair i was sitting was too short to see soot bt still can see soot's eye. haha..and ohyah, went to buy books n i was like on e dot. i went at 4 when e bkshop closes at 4...haha. got fd wad.and so i ask tt guy "can rite?" ( so sotong-ly ) den he said "can i say no..haha.." and me n soot was like "uh huh..." and i almost said wadeva bt suddenly rmbed tt i shld stop saying wadeva cos i think it sounded rather crude n rude. so i din say..haha, as u can see, i got nothing to say le, even tok until e bkshop conversation. haha. bb!

.nice day.

yoyoyo!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. jus came back from outing with maáms. haha..if it's squaddies, shld be much nicer..haha. bt we had a great time! haha. we went kcc at first den when we were waiting for ex.ex. sec 4 maáms to come, we called and dey say dey nt coming down. so we got no ball. and i was like..oh no! dis is nt gonna be like yesterday rite?! and smmore i was e onli one dere with e maáms cos soot n tang tink it's too early so comin later..den samantha have family matters so, she comin gat 1030...and i was bored dere. hmm.. den we had to go maám yik ka's hse near by dere cos she can den go home n take her bball. hmm. quite a long way n my legs were beginning to be like.so tired cos yesterday got dance so..very tired den still need to walk so long ( we got lost too )..haha..bt tt's ok lah..den fianlly got to e court and quite hot. haha. ( seems to be complaining ) hahahaha. and den e game started n yah..nothing unusual. den tang n soot came. caught her striking blue shirt...haha..so outstanding. e colour. haha.den yah. went to find mamashop bt i got lost again..haha..sotong wad, wad do u expect?! haha...den we came back wif food! and den e maáms were waiting for us to finish and den we played!!! more enthu lah..cos e "sec n qms" is almost complete. short of one sec onli(which is coming later!) haha. den...yah..nothing special again lah..den we went void deck to play zhong ji mi ma and truth or dare..haha. bt we played too much and ask until no qns to ask le. cos i dun dare to choose dare anymore. haha..oh yah. while eating, we played tarot cards and my card for lovelife is "confused" ( hun luan )haha..i think it's rather true..it explains: 1. have alot of gd and bad tao huas 2.make up ur mind 3. have clear relationships [tt's wad tang says] haha..maybe it's true?? i dunnoe..bt it seems quite true. haha. shant say anymore. haha. and den we sam came and e "secs n qms" is complete!!! so everyone became very very crazy ("secs n qms" is e craziest pples in our squad) haha..den we went to play basketball and dis is really e basketball i'm toking..and now, fun things happen!!! soot got e ball and...sam frm behind...tickle her..


and den soot..u all shld noe wad she scared of....


and so....

she rolled on e floor....(still grabbing tightly to e ball)

and den her legs jus went up..over head n she almost did a backward roll...

hahahahahahahaha...imaging..first time i see pple play bbal untill do aerobics one...haha..

den a lot of fun things happen also and yah...we rolled all over e floor...

haha...bt without e fun things den is e bball tt i really want to play when it's like so so energetic, powerful and rather tiring bt i like e spirit! haha..and . yah. it was fun. haha. den we went to eat at tampines fd (haha..looks like fd..it means food) court n yah..smone jus took our seats n i got "bullied" by 2 little gals....haha..nola..i wanted to sit down den dey came to seat n yah..i dun fight n argue wif kids..haha...so we lost anudder seat again...hahahahahahaha..

den we went tampines mall's secret corner..haha, nt really secret or ulu cos it's jus beside e lift so lotsa of pple walking here n dere. den wanted to play tarot cards bt maáms dunwant..and i dun dare to ask for playing again..haha..so in e end, we played for samantha only cos she haven predict her lovelife..haha..and den..e maáms left..we talked for quite a while b4 we left n den we went home. samantha n i were on bus 31 and we FINISHED discussing abt song..we took e 40 minutes' trip to complete n **niors din complete it (in 1 month's time)..haiz..nvm..as long as things are done! and yah..rather happy. den.. yah..nothing much already..oh yah! onmy way home..smone came up to me for tt type of advertisement thing lah and i finally noe how to reject pple..learn frm tang n soot dey all..pro in rejecting pple. haha. and so sry sam, haha..everytime go out with me den sure donate wif me one..haha..hahahahahahaha...tink tt's all rite..hmm..
shld be..byebye!!!

sad/happy??

haha. jus came back home and seems like i'm e first to go online, pple. haha. anyway. yah. cancelled training today cos low attendance lah and din scold them today too cos so little pple, scold already also no use. eeyeh. shant tok ab them, it'll only makes me..troubled. anyway, we were supposed to play basketball after evac bt!!! argh. was rather irritated. haha. a bit only lah bt i wasnt angry. dun wry squaddies. and fil, dun cry. u'll only make me a bad person when dey all ask me nt to bully u. bt i din even do anything to u!!! i jus want to play bball, den u also on e verge of crying. eeyeh..make me e devil. nvm. haha. anyway..i still want to play basketball. hmm.. next time den. sigh. pretty upset. haiz. nvm lah. haha. and den we played truth or dare ( my most afraid game ) haiz.. make me so embarassed for thousands of time. bt dis time round. haha. i dont go for dare. everytime when it's my turn, i'll only say "truth" immediately. haha. u all shld noe why..haha..and found out so many secrets of my squad...haha..even secrets of me when i dont even noe it. i shall be more..stick to my decision and i really did. tho i want to noe, bt i dun really care. tml..maáms want to play bball with us!!! bt i have some things in school...den e maáms dun want to go school to play. nvm, shall persuade them. haha. i noe dey noe i'll be upset if i cant play. so might have a chance tt maáms will be cumin tml!!! ( nt excited abt them cumin bt excited abt basketball ) haha. seems to be crazy ovr bball. anyway. still got wad?? hmm..on e bus, din really tok much also, dunnoe why. and have lotsa things to do!! cant stand it. so busy...why am i so so busy with rc stuff. bt nvm lah, i like. i dun mind bt i do need some time to catch up with my studies. haiz. haven study yet. waiting for juniors'call and maybe need to ask maám qt some stuff n ask where e maáms playing bball tml.

oh forgot abt iit!!! next week got joel sir's thingy. can we dun go?! maybe i shld feels honoured if chosen bt e prob is i dun want to by...u all noe lah. bt have to go, nt very sure which schs goin too. ask a few also dunnoe wad i toking. haha. rather scared. so, a bit contradicting dere. hmm.. jus go lorh, wont die. haha. and i'm still pondering if i shld go for ulp and grp outing.
sigh. i'm shy u see. haha. and yah, i'm kinda..hmm..nvm. haha.

oh yes!!! and i forgot to tok abt e chewing-gum-commit-suicide incident. haha. i agree to let pauline do firemen's lift on me and i was eatinge chewing gum tt filza bought ( nt really in e mood to eat tho ) haha...and den...
pauline was doing her steps one by one andi was still happily chewing e bubble gum and den...

she lifted me up and i let out a cry.

jus at tt split second, when she stood up and when i let out a cry...


my bubble gum committed suicide. it jumped off from my mouth!!!

it was like so funny and all of us started laughing and everyone was on e floor even those "in e air" ( e casualties ) dey jus jump off and laugh their heads off. i was rather embarassed lah. bt luckily, it was onli my squadmates. if it's like other schs' pple...i'll be like...dunnoe where to hide my face. haha. funny incident. isnt it?? haha. still kinda find it funny now. tt scene. hahahahahaha.



and a few minutes ao, xw just called me and told me e attendance for tml, i told her if change to friday, wad's e attendance? and so, still waiting for her call..hope can be better. killing 2 birds wif a stone ( i dun like to kill birds n i dun kill ) haha. cos if on friday, will have more pple and den tml i can play basketball wif the maáms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha..i'm kinda excited bt let's jus hope tt tml wont have anything pop up and hope tt pple are wiling to play !!! haha...i dun like to force pple to play. and i'm awaiting maám yk's tarot cards!!!!!!! tt's anudder exciting thing too. cos i think it's rather true. in fact, very very true. and right NOW! cathey ( my dear cat ) is trying to steal food frm my plate. haha...she's lying beside me now. betta go off now. bb!!

wadeva

wad is dis?! attendance=5...out of 19 pple...oni 5..maybe u all have ur reasons bt..i dun accept some of them as reason. cant dey differentiate reason n excuses?! wadeva. wadeva. wadeva. i hate dis.'after we left, is all dis gonna end?? maybe e next batch have high expectations and e next next batch have good human touch bt if all of them combine together. POO!!! cant even cooperate...view them separately is good bt together as a hole...bull poo. wadeva. all dis r nt gonna work n wad abt *! i'm so gonna sae: wadeva. ACTIONS SPEAK BETTER THAN WORDS!!! dun all of u al noe dis?! get dis clear. tml all of them r gonna get it. we're busy enuff. stop giving us trouble. understand!! n u all. incorrigible. horrendous. i cant stand all dis!!! dis is going over. (cool. relax) everyone been thru all dis maybe nt as bad as us bt we muz succeed in overcoming all dis problems. we can do i. we have confidence. ok. set. let'snot get troubled over all this n haha. have fun in our squad cos u all have me!!! haha...oh no. being rather ego here. oops. haha. tell u all jokes tml. during evac. dun really noe wad to tell u all bt tml sure can come up one cos i have a quick-witted mind!!! haha. shall stop being ego. haha. jus tml's agenda; have fun in squad for evac..den..plan wad to scold and finally. scold! or maybe we shld have talentime 1st cos if not den later we dun have any mood. so...we talentime prac first den SCOLD!!! hahaha..rather happy. finally scolding juniors. dunnoe how long haven scold them already den. trying to be nice bt it doesnt seems to work tt well.

...

pple...u all maybe pissed after reading my previous posts..cos..i believe u all share e same thots. tt's why...bored. nobody online!!! argh...have lah..bt i duntok to them..haix...now how?! i've got nuthin to do..shall ggo do my prog.budget n performance!!! okie. gd..and haha.dun be pissed lah...see e unit blog for interesting pics i ask samantha to post. bt depends on when she posts them...haha...some funny ones inside..

.helpless.

why?? i'm feeling so helpless now...i dunnoe why. jus have e sudden urge of cryin and i did. for no reason. duo shao ci lei zai yan kuang. wo yong wei xiao di dang. gao su zi ji, zong hui you da an. suo you de zhang sheng gei wo li liang. "wu chu"de cai hong jiu zai yan fang. i love tt part of e lyrics. cos i. tend to hold back my tears and i'm feeling helples now. for no reason. tt's wad teens go thru rite. guess so. it's hard. i cant handle it. maybe. i dunnoe. fd. qm. fdc. tt. studies. rc. i dunnoe. smtimes i jus feel lik e whole world is crashing down on me and im using my last breadth to hod on to it. but i noe. at least sm pple will be always be dere for me. my grpmates. maybe i tok too much abt them bt. whenever wad happens, dey always stand by me and dese r frenz. i count myself lucky to noe them. thank u. why am i feeling so...hmm. weird me. and got my squadmates too lah..bt have little close ones. our squad is fallin too.. we tok abt juniors. wad abt ourselves. we do give excuses too rite. haha. dun tink i did. some put in e best. some push everything to others. i dun feel their existence. maybe have. bt. haiz. sigh. i want e unit ( when i was sec 1or 2; when it's maám yuching's batch leading/maám sarah's batch leading). tt's e real tkgrcy i noe. bt now.. it's all gone. squaddies...cant we get it back?? we onli tok bt din take actions to do anything. actions speaks better than words. *sings let's get it started...let's get it started...haha...tryin to lift e spirit up..without music. my life will be gone. haha. music helps. so...my phrase: *repeat after me! I CAN DO IT!! I HAVE CONFIDENCE!!! squaddies...we can do it. maám jocelyn: "tell urself u can and u really can" this phrase braced me thru. it really works. we can do it!

my decision!

pple...jus to tell u e decision i made abt 2 or 3 days ago lah...haha. nt so serious one bt. yahlah. jux noe it. and rmb to see my wishlist horh! so stop!!!
anyway...i want to address..i dun wanna care or have anything to do abt g*ys anymore!!! i'm scared of such things and i dun wan scandals to "pop" up again..haha...ren yan ke wei...and i dun care hu likes hu and hu had a crush on hu and wadsoeva. it's irritating...hmm...change topic.

gonna scold **niors on wed..my wall faced e music yesterday. listening to me scolding **niors. so angry wif them and i hate their attitude! yes. i mean it. hate!!! their attitude..incorrigible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! blister=leg injury...wah...does tt mean if sprained ankle den need to amputate leg!!! ridiculous. another example: practice 930 to 430...nt free frm 1230 to 230 means cant come for any part of e practice...do dey noe dere's such thing called leave early and come late?! must we tell them word by word?! need to spell out?? i want back corporal punishment. nt too serious one shld be okay rite...as long as i dun do lik 200 to 300+ in one go...it shld be alright...treat it lik normal morning p.t. lah... since during the holidays, dey dun have p.t. in e morning.to me. it can replace morning p.t. and yah...hope can lah. and juniors...u haf ur problems...we have it too...so...spare a thought for us. is u all tt sae want to change to 930 to 530 one den onli 2 person can come and wad is dis..CANCEL training jus becos of low attendence...sry bt i haf to sae dis: bull poo! den make up tt prac also cancel due to low attendance. and todae's prac also postpone. argh! i hate dis! dun dey want to win. i'm nt gonna say give up!!! even if dey dun giv me e attitude. i'll make sure dey still put in their best in e comp....i'll nv ask if dey want to withdraw frm e comp. i cant and i will not and i nv will have tt thot. i must beat V*...get dis clear. haha.. sound so wad rite. nvm lah. for dose reading dis. jus to tell u. wadeva u do. dun giv up. u'll regret it. haha.so inspirational suddenly. eee.

hmm...shalll sign off here...when i tink of more things den blog lah...and dose readin. rmb!!!dun link my blog to ur blog cos i dun wan anybody to noe my blog except for my squaddies!!! thnk u..

yoz

yoyo...jux got a blog. as u can see. evrything is empty. haven update. under construction.