just reached home! =// it's lateee.
keeping myself busy busy busy! and not to think of people! hahaha.
but it just feels so empty after a task?
oh wells. i guess i haven really gotten use to the change of environment.
but life's pretty great here in 07s402 and 5th student council!
hmmm. still missing volleyball training, odac training, etc. but things are going fine i guess. found some puSh to study and aiM to score well in every test! i guess it really depends on the friends you hang out with. ofcourse i'll study with my squadmates. that's something defiNite. and ahhh! i pass the maths test, though barely pass? but first maths test i pass in mjc! and i got A for my physics lecture test! OMG. hahaha. super tyco. must jiayous and not let ms susan tee downnnn. learn from josephine and xiuqi! (tkgians!) ahhh! had my econs test today.. eh..... rubbish? heh. so muuuch tutorials and assignments to do! how to start studying for promos. 25 days left to promos. oh my gdness. i can do it i can do it. but i hafta plan for mjc orientation! during our promos period!! together with the 11 others =) it's seriously super large scale! so many details to look out for. hahas. good learning experience bahs!
i need to spend more time with my redcross peeps orh! joining them for ratatouile on 3 september! haha. ma'am sarah!! my example to follow still. she's so pro and strong during her jc life. i haf faith that you'll do good NoW with the kOalAs as well yea, ma'am =) i haven sent out her letter! hahaha. draGonbOating--DeTerMinAtion cOmeS witH ConcEntRatioN.
oh i'm gona get a meridian windbreaker soon! =)) da jia jiayou!
it still feels abit... empty. but i'm holding to the faith and believe . i wanahaf icecream+chocolates for my breakfast again eh.. =/
wHerE aRe yOu? =(
ahhhhhh..!
*screams!
haix.
went dragonboating last saturday! it was our pe games elective and i chose DB! =))
finally tried dragonboating hahaha. actuallieeeee.. i wanted my cca to be DB when i came jc. but very few colleges accept db as their cca. so yea! hahas. if i can make it to university, i wana join DB as cca! (:
really wonderful experience =) the tranquility and forcefulness of the water.
"get the CATCH and PULL" i'm from the ABC team! =)) we actuallie sang ABC as our db timing. hahaha. yuenyin was my partner and ohmygdness, we were the pair infront! so everyone had to follow our timing =/ so scary and horrible at first! but at the end of our session, our timing was WHEE! a b c d e f g.... haha. tell you something unbelievable! when shouting timing, we needa focus and concentrate, and i forgot how to sing ABC! hahaha. so maluuu. =:)
DeterMinAtion Comes wiTh ConcentraTion.
<< me and yuenyin!
<< our COACH and the 4 of us =)Every SinGle One hAs tHeir stRong aNd dEterMined Side.
we tried several fun and super scary acts!
-- sat on the RiM of the BoAt, shUt our Eyes, tOtally dependent on your partner. coach will then roCk the boat real hard. whooo~~ scary but exciting! alot on trusting ur partner. he actually taught the blinds to dragonboat before. isnt it scary for dem? =( *salutes to him and to the brave pple! he's somewhere our age lar, still in republic poly. what have we done to help others? =)
-- stood on the boat, changed seats in the middle of... kallang river? hahaha. =p
-- race everywhere and splash water!
we did our hard10.20! =)) super super tiring but wonderfully memorable. the scenery, the timings, the smiles, the images of our destination stood in our minds =)
25august.dragonboating at kallang river!
on sunday and today! -- lousy monday.
thankyou so much to sam! my evadearest samantha! hahaha. i know you'll be here. it has been long since i ............ to anyone. thanks dear friend. dear squadmate!
a friend walks in when the world walks out. the war doesnt show who's right but who's left behind.
sam turtle, you entered when i was left behind. and you walked in. =)
so so so looking forward to FRIDAY! 31 august! we will meet and play basketball !! :D hopefully do our BriNg Me tO liFe! march around and every every thing.. i love you squadmates!
watched secret today! took much more retarded pics but it's in cera's cam i tink. =p haha. my yellow face boyfriend! haha... it was de simpsons phototaking model ;)
hmm secret... so sad =( and a totally unexpected plot. haha. so sad i cried! but er. it's sad because... you link some scenes to yourself? yeps. it leaves me feeling so empty! we went to catch fireworks after dat!
oh yes yes. please protect the animals! so cruel ='( support the animal society thingie!
i'm glad i watched it with my squadmates! but i reallyreally wanted to meet 0707 just now. =( haha.
the fireworks looked like shooting stars at some part and i made wishes! haha..
many people dere but all we could hear was the popping of fireworks. everyone was so focused! it's amazing how the crowded area can be so peaceful. haha.
hmmm. while watching fireworks. i thought of many people! i guess they carry some weight in my heart! my squaddies, 0707, my family and retarded.
i'm feeling.......... i dunno. hahas. i'm not emo, nor high, dont feel lik thinking of anything. sam noticed that i was sad! dat's my buddy. =) if only, we can find a spot, sit and chat throughout the night! if only.... you were there with me.
fireworks fireworks =) i didnt really mind when it ended cos new ones will be popping out! and when everything ended, hmm. i watched it, i'll remember and it's enough! doesnt matter.
i think i'm thinking of.....
tHursDay -- eat apple day!
hahas! H&F club gave free apples for health and fitness week! =) super crunchy! YUMMY!FridAy -- meet lili and BuMPed into SQUADMATES! ahhh!
went to meet Lili at redhill den i accompany her back to choachukang. time passed so fast! was feeling rather scared and yea...hopeful? haha =.= at dose places lar.. yeps.
reached bedok and was ready to walk home as usual... dinnoe wy but just had de urge to turn my head and search for smthing. dint noe wad was i searching for till i saw AHMENG! manymany incidents where our squad's telepathy activates! sounds absurd but when u feel it, it's amazing.
ahmeng and me hugged at the ESCALATOR. hahash. and she pangseh her friend. den we ran alldeway to give tangtang a huge surprise!! =)) tang hugged me at the HAWKER CENTRE! and she pangseh her friends as well. haha! lol.
the BEST SATAYS we've ever eaten!! ice kachang! red ruby!! *ahhhh! lol.
cant bear to leave after finishing the icekachang so we went to play and chat!
we got so so high and crazy.
went on the kids'playground! the EQUILIBRIUM, SPINNING DISC. scream and scream and scream! so GidDy!! went the elderly's fitness corner! exercise and exercise! we were so SUA KU. hahas! the doggie was accompanying us as well! hahaha.
we started calling other squadmates., ahhas. trying hard to confuse them! "i'm yingqi, i'm sooming. no i'm tanglin!" hahaha.
the following mite sound superficial and wad everyone would say to their friends. but. hmm. we gave it serious thought over a long period of time and we are sure about this.
we are squadmates. once the bond is formed. we never felt it breaking.
now we understand the phrase .friends (aka squadmates) for life. =)
we cant meet each other everyday just like how we did in tkgs.
we were afraid at first that this bond would diminish?
but now, this distance between us, strengthened our squad. everyone's growing stronger and. we value our squad's relaionship much more.
when we see each other, i feel the motivation to live my life to the fullest. and not just to survive life. we are squadmates.
it's time to get back on my feets!
FOCUS.
and not to slack through.
nor get distracted.
thanks so much to all who cared!
=)
remember the quote?
i can do it!
as i was walking home yesterday, that little girl smiled so sweetly at me.. her eyes and smile touches my heart! and she made my day! haha. all i wanted to do was.. to share that tiny piece of happiness with you.
sometimes as i search the sky.
i cant find de Moon.
i cant find de Moon.
but i'll see the stars
where are you?
the sky's so clear tonight.
the stars are shining so brightly.
if only we were all at campsite!
just reached home an hour ago =)
went to makan at BEDOK with evonne maam, estheryeo, fluffy, xingtan, birdHA, step Hen, robert/robin! yonghock sir came with his terrace for a short while!woahhs.
had a nice short chat with zhu xing tan on the bus! =)
at least to them, sometimes i don hafta watch my words. =)
i... dunno how and why am i feeling this way?!
sometimes i really really wish to turn away when i see STRESS. ='(
i woke up earlier today to complete my work. unlike the previous sundays.
but it's just
so much more to do..so much more incomplete
it's a lousy feeling. when you tried to improve but still things are not done. =(
more tests are coming up.
...
i dont wana give up. =(
but i noe i din put in enough effort.
courage need not always roar. sometimes, it's a silent voice saying. i will try harder, one more time.
one.more.time.
***! wHerE aRe You? ='(
ahhhhs! hahaha
end of workshop.
......sobs.
oa camp..fac.. firstaid across singapore ETC.
oacamp oacamp! DAE JIO BU. (gatsby taught us. it meant: it's ok) ahahahs gatsby will take me on motorbike and sent supper to de oa camp pple! =))
breaking off to study for promos.
but i'll be back!! exams ending early october =D
but i guess the next rc event is in december? if not next year. =( wont see VIs for a while.
it's alright! we'll meet up for movieees. hahas
feel so lovveeeed in VI family!
**although i always make mistakes HAha.
jorin maam cut egg for me! (so motherly! hahaha) share icecream wif me smmore!
derek treated me when he had onli few bucks left!
qijun sir jianfu sir waited so longgg. *tink nxtime i dondare oversleep le. hHAha.
fluffy so sad when i sae i goin study break!
gatsby hoteck joanne maam bertha alfian sir qihui maam qingxiang sir joan maam qiuyu sir manymanymore!!
feel so spoilt when wif dem. hahas! with my VI family
lovess dem to bits =))
i'll workhard for my promos! VIs can do well in school as well alrite!
CheErs tO tHIs hUge fAmilY. =)
yesterday! a day out with the redcross VIs.
unforgettable larh.. =) they can surely make me laugh and forget everything! =)
had fun at IKEA with another bunch of great friends in council too. =))
but i didnt haf time for class outing and A2 gathering. =((
events planning. promos coming. and
i cried in school! ahahhas. but i guess my tear didnt fall. and i wuldnt let it do so. haha. =D
after my promos. i'm gona take up dance classes. =) hopefully i'm making the right decision.. cos that's where my interest lies. most likely in future, i'll be involved in somestuffs related to kids.
keep holding on- this song is from me to maam sarah, joanne maam, filza and lili. =)
just stay strong and we will make it through.
SMILEs.
in-complete
it was beyond words to describe..
that smile?
that cry?
so silly. haha.
when?
where?
the friends you hold close to your heart are those that...
hmm.
when you're with them, you forget all your troubles elsewhere.
the One in your heart is the one...
hmm.
you see miracles in the eyes. =)