heex!!!

harloe!!! i'm still online!!! hahax! and i'm printing my notes!! yeah!! i'm FINALLY done with my gold notes!! hahax! den printing halfwae, den my printer NO INK!!! den i change colour le, den i DUN HAVE ENUFF PAPER!!! hahax!! but i managed to find paper=) so, dere it is printing now. hopefully very turns out well=) ahaha!! yeah!! so nice so nice=) and tml must photocopy and rmb to bring $$!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahax! tml sports dae!! yeah! hahax! at bedok stadium, den afta tt, goin PS to eat at pizza hut, den go shop shop for farewell prezzies=D spending $$ again!! =( hahax! nvm. for my jnrs, it's worth it! hahahahax!!! 2nd last page. heex!! =) oh no, tml no energy how?! hahax! it's already 1.23am. and i scared e notes wrong lar! i mean based on my memory, haax! and u shldnt trust my brain! hahax! hahax!! yeah! "printing complete" hahahahax! 9 wonderful pages. hahax! very little ritex. 9 onli. cos it's kinda brief, den i cheat some of them. haha=) yeah!! the notes look soo wonderfully nice! hahax! so, in my time as fdic, i made gold and perlahan, and dig out all useful notes and yea. must give them all by tml! hahax! den for e notes part, as least í can sae i'm done and and i did my job=) onli for notes lar. but at least gt smthing. hahax. hopfully copylab prints fast. hahax! and i'm kinda slpy now but e notes made me ABIT energetic. hahax. and i haven revise my first aid. hahax. but tt one can later b4 slp, think everything thru can le=) and evac oso. hahax! so, tml, get up at 5am. call cab and ask driver to reach at 5.35am. okie. den erm. means i cannot lai chuang='( but i sure will de. hahax! den nid to bring 1.5 rite, i tink mine in rcr, wear mufti, den erm. hmm. bandages? just bring lar. erm.. still gt wad. class tee! hahax! just bring incase we can wear it. hmm. NOTES!!! how can i ever forget that. hahax! and otp abit, but i very hungry now. hahax. tho i ate wang wang again! hahax. and hopefully i dun get fever tml. cos i kip walking in rain=/ den slp so late, no proper diet recently, and i kip ha-chew-ing junnow. and feeling cold now. and oh nononononono. hahahx!! but shd be fine=) si bu liaox=D
and i jus went to e storeroom to find smthin and i saw my flag. my grp flag. my ulp b3 grp flag. hmm.. "protected" memories. hahax. PS macdonald's. hahax! crazy jokes. got pple cry. got pple flare up. complains. teamwork. proposals. 4yrplan. recruitment drive. hahax. shahidah.firdaus.farah.shihui.me.xiqing.shane.muhd.desiree. hahax. oh well. bez wishes to everyone=) hopeyall doin fine=) hahax. and nt to forget my other ulp frens!! hahax! my committee!! madeline.sarah.priscilla.faiz.elaine.kartina..and manie manie more. and my dearest tkg peeps! hahax! aisyah.filza.pauline.atiqah. and the platoon b pple! hahax! b4 set campfire structure wif us. b2 clean toilets wif us! hahahax! platoon b bonding session. hahax! and e whole ulp!! hahax! I MISS ULP 2005 1st batch!!! a firedrill can happen anietime, just like NOW! hahax! i love tt manx! hahax! hmm. i miss ulp!! hahax! alritex. ulp memories. hahax. jus one flag. hahax. and hmm. 1.47am le. uh-oh!! hahax! pack bandages. notes. wear mufti. bring pinafore. water. writing materials. den i can kiap my notes inside=p ok. pinafore tml den put lar. hmm. still gt wad. hmm. later revise first aid and evac. den no more le ritex. hmm..oh no! wad if my rctee haven dry!! oh nononono!! phew! lucky it's dryin le. hahahx! yeah. so i'm done! go catch some slp now, still have 3 hrs slp! yeah! hahax! hopefully it's enuff to tahan me for the whole of tml! hahax! wahh. veri scared! wad if i forget aniething tml! and hopefully tml no major prob casualty! =/ okie. go slp le. nitex! hmm. shldnt be nitex but morniex! hahax! byebye!! =)

yoo=)

yoohoo=) recently my brain my mind is like.. hmm. very very very not in a clear state i can sae. hahax. things still go on smoothly AT TIMES.. but my work is soooo lagging lar. i mean studies. i'm like super lagging!! emaths. amaths. physics. chem a bit. hcl. lit kinda. aiya. i dunnoe lar. just realised thousands and millions of them nt done. but must heed ma'am yan ying's advice. study study and study. no motivation=( haix. even if dun have still must get own to work. =)
todae..hmm. ms tee ask me to go out to ans qns lar! but i din do lor! so, i took berenice's paper=(
so bad ritex. feeling so.. haix. and i'm becoming more and more.. hmm. rebellious? naughty? hahax! i dunnoe~~ i use handphone in class now. i eat in class now. and take out nametag le. attitude seems to change. take things more easily. hmm. is tt good or bad. well. maybe in some situations good lor. hahax! den i actually use handphone in the hall! when mrs chia was toking! when i dun have bag to cover! and all i have was one sheet of paper and my pinafore. haix. 3 missed calls from ma'am sarah and 1 missed call from mrs guna and 2 msges from ma'am sarah. u tell me dun reply?! hahax! haix. cos of accred lor. =) hahax. i guess. but dunnoe abt mrs guna. i oso din call her back. hahax. but it was good tt i din reallie panic or wad for accred todae. =D well. hmm. these 4 yrs. i've learnt to be more.. patient? wo bu zhi dao lar. and tang was saying do u feel urself as a teen? hahax! she goes arnd asking pple tt. and hmm. my ans was hahax. nt reallie. cos we abit too guai le lor. and like wad pau said, e perseption. hahx! hmm.. hahax! i'm feeling weird! oh god! hahax! nvm. i'm goin mad. and tml needa reach school by 6am. hahx! and todae i actually bring this np gal to sch! hahax! she was standing dere at e 33 booth den i noe she's gina be late lar, so i approach her den we went to take train together and hahax. and accred todae, okie lar, nt bad, but attendance abit siao. so had to make some changes=) an i forget to bring $$, so had to borrow from hmm. kirstie and atiqah. den accred okie lar. quite fun. some of them mute haf found it too easy, dey do e paper den i see their faces keep smiling de. hahax. and yeah! i changed some answers=) hahax! den yar. quite ok lar. but recently becos of accred thing, i keep giving ma'am sarah probs and oh gosh, jnrs haven tell me e attendace for dates. oh god. and i nid to tell ma'am sarah tml! oh no! and i read thru camp reports. i just browsed thru some of my comments. some pts i need to take note: got 2 points wasnt clarified properly. hahax. den i oso dunnoe le. and gt some seriousy weird comments! i dun tink it's a good idea posting. hahax! hahax! i was like uh-huh when i read those. hahax! hahax! AND i very depressed person isit?! hahax! sam arhz! aniehow sae lar! =D hahax! and yeah! i packedmy cupboard todae.it looks neater bahx. and need to settle farewell stuffs and accred stuffs and studies. hahax! hmm. and as usual! tonite stayin up again. hahax! cos i still working on my gold notes. aiyo. supposed to give them todae. but. haix. i culdnt finish lar=( so inefficient ritex!! hahax!! and i dunnoe wad's attire for tml! hahax! shld be mufti. hahax! and yeah! shoppin tml! for farewell presents. but apparently, if i were to withdraw $$ for e camp things, i cant withdraw $$ for moi farewell presents! hahax! and since i'm stayin up, i'll see how long i can tahan den see if can do homework anot. aoo manie lar! my book dun even have enuff space to write. haahx! lucky copylab is 24 hrs de =D














i promise to be here =) no matter wad happens=)

=(

helloxx.. trng todae was kinda fun bahx! hahax.. had fd and ye. finally taught sec1s. not e first time lar. but yar i thot it was nt bad lar. hahax. had mass fd. den was like. sec1s dere, sec2s here. sec3s dere. ahhax. den at first quite fun lar. smtimes give them a push like gif them 10 seconds to put down water bottles den fall in. ahahx! but my 10 seconds is cheat de. hahax. i was like standing dere for e first 5 seconds den realising that i haven put down bottle! hahax! so must run and run and run larhx! hahax! so, my last 5 seconds quite slow! hahax! so farnie. hahax. den tart fd le. den it started raining so got them to shift in to canteen. den canteen was sssoooooo noisy lar! den had to go louder and louder. den cos it was mass footdrill, den e sec2s and 3s were numbering off. hahax! and toking abt them, i just relised that I HAVEN PHOTOCOPY TEST PAPERS! so dead manx! hahax! nv. still gt recess=) which means tml recess is no food de. hahax! but i ask them to look for me tml recess for all dose dates. so, must stay in rcr oso. hahax. and tml i'll be bringing air freshener and insect killer to rcr. rcr is kinda dirty and ... afta camp. hahx! and must chiong out fd gold notes todae! but guess i'll do it at a later time lar. go finish my omework first?? hmm. yea=) and mrs guna scolded me todae! haix. but nvm, since when have rc pple nt scolded by teachers. =( she said why cancel fd prac yesterdae?! and tell her so late. den why din confirm earlier e attendance. ='( i got confirm lor. jus that juniors last minute cannot make it. not their fault rite! haix. nvm. =) and i haven eat!! hahax. nvm lar. hahax=D













previously was becos of.. yet now is.. i just regret.. and cant believe myself..

yozie..

yoozie.. hahax. mrs guna just called me and ask me wad to do. smone in school is injured. hahax! so farnie. den i gave her instructions. [dunnoe whether correct anot. =/] den she give tt person instruction. hahax. woof haha. see. sec4s must still stay back in school. hahax! but cannot ar must study le=) she has a dislocated toe. and i was like. wad. hahax. dislocated toe. hahax. how she noe is dislocated toe. hahax! so cute! hahax! hahax. not supposed to be cute. hahax! hope i sae correct things mnx. haha! trust me cera! hahax! and feeling sooo wahh now. supposed to haf footdrill lesson with sec1s! hahax! i was so excited kkz! sec1s! i "betted" with sam that they wont be late. but they were. den i went to loook for them, den loooking at the situation, i asked. how mnie pple coming todae? and she said two. two. two. two. ='( i was soo excited to teach them, den in the end have to can ce. wad is this?!?!? nvm, i have tml trng to teach them. i want to set a good foundation for my sec1s=) =D hahax. den their footdrill standard will be good! ahahax! must succeed kkz! hahax! tml have history ca! hahax! must study study again=)
tml have mass footdrill. oh yesh! and i need to pass the unit gold notes! arhz! hahax! nvm. i mite as well pass sec1s bronze if i haven, pass sec2s silver if i haven. pass sec3s and 4s gold. which i obviously haven. hahax. cos i haven finish yet marhx. and oh nonononon. i forgot to go photocopy the papers. arhz!! hahax. nvm. still have tml=) and gona call uniform company later. hahax! remind me! hahx! okie. byebye!! =)

back early!

heiya!! yeah! i'm like back home at 3. 05pm!! hahah. yeah! VVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIII looong din reach home sooo early le=D haha. but feeling a bit uneasy. haha. reaching home early. like it has become a norm to stay back in sch till e sch chase us awae. hahaha. tang and fil went to but fa supplies todae. aiyo. so sorrie arh. hah. feeling so bad din go wif u. haha. but u gt fil le lar. i'll feel xtra dere. ahaha. hahaha. kiddin kiddin=) but cos tml gt amaths ca!! haha. must do well kkz!! and that samantha arhz. came to pressurize me. haha. she finish studying le. hahaha. nvm. gd for u gal. haha. nv sae die! hahax! an why am i online now?! haha. scanning fd bronze and silver IBS papres. haha. cheating u see! ahaha. no lar. and i did both papers during my hcl class. hahax! soo easy kkz! hahax!! bronze paper is 1 hr but no way am i giving them one hour to complete it. it's very basic. very very basic. hahax! if i can finish within 10 minutes, i believe they can too! hahax! and smmore this thurs taking one is moi fdc squad leh! hahax! i haf faith in them! hahax.. so, i giving them 35 minutes=) hahax! i men. hmm. if dey need more time den obviously i'll give them. hahax! but i trust that they'll gimme me back within 35 minutes. hahx! hopw everyone pass!! and e silver, i giving them 35 minutes oso lor. haha. but i MITE lengthen abit more. hahax! cos again, i do during hcl class. hahax! about less den 15 minutes. haha. not very gd lar. but at least.. hahax! but i noe got 2 qns quite tricky=/ hahx. now i noe how pau feels doing the new RCK papers le. hahax! aniewae. arhx!! i seem so unprepared for the accreds. hahax! and tml i have fd lesson with sec1s! hahax! i love having fd lessons wif sec1s! hahax. i donoe. e drills nt good but u noe. e satisfaction u get when dey are able to execute more and more drills. but too bad dun haf time le. so, try to teach them as many stuffs as possible. but alwaes rmb. NEVER RUH THRU BASIC DRILLS. once they are rushed thru, their fd future will be gone! hahax! sounds serious but it's true. hahax! it's stated smwhere in the fd manual also=)
serious lor. hahax. NV rush thru basic drills. hahax! and hmm. still have some fd stuffs haven settled. must settle them before i step down=) like some notes. like gold notes! yes! gold notes, e priority manx. if not, sec4s will have nuthin to study. hahax! and i guess i'm e first person to come up with gold notes =/ so, kinda scared. u noe. i din take gold before. hahax! slow march. hmm.. scared scared. but after the paper, have to edit it, den nx time jnrs take will be better. hahax! den at least haf smone above them to guide them along. =) aww. so sweet ritex. hahax! and arhz! yesh! i donoe how manie times le! hahax! i almost bang into the wall. hahax! cos i was sayin hi?? to the animals. haha. no matter where. dere alwae seems to haf a wall standing near me. haha. den i was looking at e animals den when i turn arnd, i was standing right infront of the wall. hahax!! hmmm.. eeyeh. e papers are taking me such a looong loong time=(
hahax! and i haven eat lunch=( soo hungry='( hahax! and i hven think of wad to buy for my fdic! hahax! and my QM!! hahax! anieone care to shop wif me?? hahax! sports dae coming=) hahax! i'm in shift 1 checkpoint 1 and shift 2 checkpoint 2 i think. hahax! and that w-a atiqah put me as potential runner! hahax! crap lar u!! hahax! and we had soo much fun in rcr todae. hahax! tanglin, samantha, kirstie, cera, filza, atiqah, sooming and me!! hahax!! -teng-tang-teng-tang- hahax!! and the wxxxxxxxxxxxx and axxxxxxxxxxxxx atiqah! hahax! we were laughing nd laughing and filza fell for one of them!! ahahax!! so farnie!! hahax! great time lar=) tmlgot amaths ca!! cannot afford to fail this test kkx! do it for the sake of all my friends. for the sake of proving that i'm nt too involved in my cca. for the sake of myself! hahax! dun disappoint ur friends quek! hahax! and i'm still scanning the test papers=( haix. 2 to 3 more to go. hahax! den go makan!! yeah!! hahax! and tml is tuesday!! =) must pass ma'am sarah the accred details and erm, remind juniors about the accred. and tml have fd lesson with sec1s!! hahax! how to make a fd lesson interesting?? hmm.. yeah! last piece den i can go eat and learn amaths le!! yeah!! hahax. have to thx sarah manx. she helped me wif amaths e other time! hahax! and we couldnt reallie focus cos we were worrying for juniors. hahax!! den that pauline arhx. couldnt stand us. hahax!! =D hahax!! okie. i'm done=) byebye!! =)

nitex

yoo..hmm. spend my wkend slacking. nt in e mood to do hmwk, i dunnoe, but better den last time bahx. yesterdae, was toking to tang. was feeling down=( den talked to tang, and she din sae much lar, but i donoe. haha. it made me MUCH betta. haha. she merely said she understand and stuffs like tt. they may be simple words but at least i noe my friend knows me. and todae, or u shld sae yesterdae. haha. cos midnite le marhx. i donoe i donoe i donoe. hahhaha. crazy. i guess i'm stayin up again bahx. i donoe wad am i doing recently. haha. laggin in everything. cca and studies. both laggin. both not excelling. u noe.. the night reallie kills. hahaha. u tink abt soo much things at nite. and tang once said. "the one u tink about at nite before u slp is e one." ahahahahha//. hmm.. serious?? ahaha. wo bu zhi dao. wo ye bu xiang zhi dao. hahahhaahaha.
=) simple..stay simple ya? alritex=)
oh no. hahaha. am i mad.. ahahaha. ohgosh, i'm crazy. hmmm.. hahax. hmm. i'm bored. hahah. as u can see lar. i blog abt nuthin. hahaha. hmmm. =/ so sianx.. haix.. i've been eating non-stop todae. e whole dae. or u shld sae from yesteradae yesterdae till now. haha. junk food as usual!! ahhahaa. and i eating wang wang now!! ahaha. very looong din eat le =) heex.
hhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm... haix..i'm bored. hahahhaha. and tang, i'll stay happie. in front of everyone. but i'll blaahh to u. hahaha. e QMs shall be e smiliee faces. no matter wad=) but i mite just blaah out to anieone. hahahha. nvm! i'm crpping. i doonoe wad to do le.. shal go watch tv! hahax. dere was disscary show junnow. hahax. weird weird de. hhhmmmmmmmmmmm.. stay simple n happie ya? =) byebye!! =)

carefree gal

hahahaha. smilez.. =)

hurt

my face feels dry.
haix.. i dun understand.
i give up at times, but there are times when i hanged on.
songs, tv phrases, words, pictures, places.
*nuthin to sae*
GOODBYE!!!

....

lemme fininsh wif my rc stuffs first. haix. so manie hmwks nt done. oh manx. but lemme finish my rc stuffs first. cheng xia qu for 2 more wks. until 7 april. haha. i must pass down perfectly for my 2 posts. everything must be done. nuthin must be left hanging. haha. qm.fdic. who?!?!?!?!?!?! tell me who manx. haix. haha. nvm. and todae speech dae. haix. nuthin to sae. are dey dere to insult fd? nvm. since we nt doin well too. but abit too bias le ritex. nvm. rc has owaes been under all these pressure. homework and rc stuffs. can finish one. or rather have to. and study study study. err.. wo kai shi lei le. cheng xia qu. =( <<>> haix.

~eng summary and compre
~SS wkbk
~accreds
~fdic test paper
~camp XX
~tink abt posts
~badges, ranks, uniform accessories forms
~uniform, boots

i shall do some in e nite, den wake up earlier to do smmore. haha. hopefully this can be successful. =(
finish camp XX now online. den do eng summary and compre, den SS wkbk. den either go slp or do my fdic test paper and forms in da morning. den tml call for uniform and boots. and rmb kkz. mrs guna send $382 to my accnt. haha. den tinking abt posts, i can do it b4 slp, when my mind will be flooded wif.. =!
byebye~!

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lemme fininsh wif my rc stuffs first. haix. so manie hmwks nt done. oh manx. but lemme finish my rc stuffs first. cheng xia qu for 2 more wks. until 7 april. haha. i must pass down perfectly for my 2 posts. everything must be done. nuthin must be left hanging. haha. qm.fdic. who?!?!?!?!?!?! tell me who manx. haix. haha. nvm. and todae speech dae. haix. nuthin to sae. are dey dere to insult fd? nvm. since we nt doin well too. but abit too bias le ritex. nvm. rc has owaes been under all these pressure. homework and rc stuffs. can finish one. or rather have to. and study study study. err.. wo kai shi lei le. cheng xia qu. =( <<>> haix.

~eng summary and compre
~SS wkbk
~accreds
~fdic test paper
~camp XX
~tink abt posts
~badges, ranks, uniform accessories forms
~uniform, boots

i shall do some in e nite, den wake up earlier to do smmore. haha. hopefully this can be successful. =(
finish camp XX now online. den do eng summary and compre, den SS wkbk. den either go slp or do my fdic test paper and forms in da morning. den tml call for uniform and boots. and rmb kkz. mrs guna send $382 to my accnt. haha. den tinking abt posts, i can do it b4 slp, when my mind will be flooded wif.. =!
byebye~!

oh god

yo.. went for 2nd session of mental resilience thingy todae. i tink it's kinda fun bahx. haha. great=) haha. have that audio thingy for us to relax and slp. learning self-defense skills from that millionaire. hahhaa. he's like ssuuuuppeeerrr rich lar. haha. den we owaes smuggle food in de. haha. cos reallie veri hungry wad. and yar, it taught us how to stay happie=) den how to handle alot of things and blaa and blaa lar. i think quite useful lehz. to us lar. =) oh yesh. and kirstie said smthin sooo vulgar todae!!! aiyo!! not reallie vulgar but more of crude. hahaha. with that XXXXX school. ahahaha. den that milionaire is ex-victoria person. den keep telling us about VS and sometimes about RI. den e rc peeps were like. "oh manx" ahahaha. den yar. nice bahx=) den oh yesh! samantha said. if i dun get into JC, i'm not allowed to join VIP!!! er. for the sake of VIP, i'll jia you jia you jia you! woof. so now, everybody must FORCE me to study hard hard hard kkz!! MUST!! no matter wad. dun lemme giv up, must force me to study and study and study!! haha. and anudder thing lar. ct. arr. i seriously wonder when this is gona be done manx. ast yr dec to jan to feb and now march den still cannot!! argh. YOs arh, pls lar. can u all go settle le den come and tell us! =! and tht speech dae arh! irriatting!! i dun see e use lar. but wad can we do?! eeyeh=( and todae had interview wif sec3, nut quie a number of us had mental resilience SO we din go. =/ and alot other things lar. nt in gd mood recently=) so, dun come and provoke me=) ahaha. but no worries. i wont flare up=) ooh. forget to do moi camp report and just receive smthin to do. haha. just ear ALL my red cross thing by todae manx. =) gdbye~!

er

er. went for mental resilence wkshp todae, fun bahx. quite funnie. but at e end, beri sianx le. tml haf chem test. must study hard hard for it. woof. suddenly all my frens seems out of contact. haha. out of a sudden. haha. feelin weird. i dunnoe. den i din fax in ndp form u noe! how! no worries=) and woof. i want ct or. oh pls. dun treat us like tt everytime. and it'owaes so last min. and i reallie cant stand "it" le lar. not an "it" but just take it as it is bahx. oh manx. dis is gettin crazy. argh. seriously lar. nvm. i'll jus tahan. argh. it's like gettin up my nerves. cant tke it down lar. wad is dis. nv has anieone * * * at me lar. it's like. so. argh. pls lor. i hope u noe it urself lar. "wadeva" haix. nvm. wo ren. er. forget it. i'll jus see wad u're doin. i shld seriously stop tokin now. haha. woohooo. tml chem test on metals. jia you! aniewe, yea. my phone is fnally bac to me. haha. oh wells. and well. rcr's still in a mess afta camp and it was infested wif ants. i dunnoe. now. i haf more things to do. and we're running out of time!! fd syllabus, rcr, uniform. and on top of it. my studies! argh. relax. chill. cool. plan things well. er. * * * * ~ ='( * * * * * *='( * * *?? ='(
hmm. off me go to study chem test le!! metals metals..i love metals.. =/. see wad i mean. i'm seriously goin crazy soon. studies+rc+blaa by blaa+ ***= madness!!

i'm seriously goin crazy.. but i'll control bahx. zai jian =! ='(

er

er. went for mental resilence wkshp todae, fun bahx. quite funnie. but at e end, beri sianx le. tml haf chem test. must study hard hard for it. woof. suddenly all my frens seems out of contact. haha. out of a sudden. haha. feelin weird. i dunnoe. den i din fax in ndp form u noe! how! no worries=) and woof. i want ct or. oh pls. dun treat us like tt everytime. and it'owaes so last min. and i reallie cant stand "it" le lar. not an "it" but just take it as it is bahx. oh manx. dis is gettin crazy. argh. seriously lar. nvm. i'll jus tahan. argh. it's like gettin up my nerves. cant tke it down lar. wad is dis. nv has anieone * * * at me lar. it's like. so. argh. pls lor. i hope u noe it urself lar. "wadeva" haix. nvm. wo ren. er. forget it. i'll jus see wad u're doin. i shld seriously stop tokin now. haha. woohooo. tml chem test on metals. jia you! aniewe, yea. my phone is fnally bac to me. haha. oh wells. and well. rcr's still in a mess afta camp and it was infested wif ants. i dunnoe. now. i haf more things to do. and we're running out of time!! fd syllabus, rcr, uniform. and on top of it. my studies! argh. relax. chill. cool. plan things well. er. * * * * ~ ='( * * * * * *='( * * *?? ='(
hmm. off me go to study chem test le!! metals metals..i love metals.. =/. see wad i mean. i'm seriously goin crazy soon. studies+rc+blaa by blaa+ ***= madness!!

i'm seriously goin crazy.. but i'll control bahx. zai jian =! ='(

it's time

look at the time..in a few hrs' time, i must be in school le. and now, i'm like packing my bag. loads of homework not done, and i was supposed to study for my test. but apparently, nothing done. seriously, i have to wake up already. sec4 le. i cant continue like this. work fast.
~~hcl compossssss
~~english composs, compre, file, newspaper book
~~emaths paperssss
~~study for chem test on tuesday. i dun care, must get full marks for that.
~~buck up my amaths. must score well for my next amaths test. can do it one.
~~buy uniforms, boots, order for assessories and badges. make ur next QM's life easier.
~~settle ndp tml, need four pple. so, just settle with ayuni, vejaya, devi and ameerah. but i'm a little afraid. but nvm, i'll do my job as a fdic to buck up all their fd. and make sure they reallie hold up tkgs's reputation. i'll just tell them during push-up, since onli four of them interested. ~~den tml, pass pauline the national camp pple. den syf pple, make sure they go for next training, hui fen, alisa and isabel. make sure they are well enough. woof! [song le yi kou qi]
~~prepare for accreditations. bronze, silver, gold. make sure a are 100% passes. make your next fdic's life much easier.
~~pack my study area. it's like soo messy lar. yingqi arhz! pack it!
ok. how manie things are there. 10. ok. stop adding anymore things to ur load le. finish them up first. my blog shall be my planner manx. haha. ok. jia you.
not onli to me, for all those reading my blog, u al must jia you. red cross cadet life is ending soon, stop thinking of the past, work hard on the future. excel in ur studies before u become a great VI. everybody jia you.

rmb. we're in it together.

we can do it! jiayoujiayoujiayou!! smilez.. defy troubles =)

moody

heloo. i've owes been opening this space here. having in mind what to blog bout. but nothin comes out. =(
well. i'm beginnin to get moody again=(
i dunnoe.
hols is like ending in a few hours'time.
and i reallie miss red cross. i dun wana stay at home now. haha. i dun feel like.
and i've not had a proper sleep after camp=(
a proper meal. perhaps. yes. my lunch todae was considered proper bahx. i dunnoe wad am i doin. i'm crappin.
ssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
i haven finish my homework. i'm too fed-up to do aniethin now. i feel like goin out or just lemme sleep. haha. but i feel like goin out and i dunnoe. i wana scream my lungs out again. haha. *escape* hahaha. but i dun feel like. i dunnoe wad i'm doin, thinkin, i simply dunnoe wad's goin on. why am i feelin like dis?! everything's not done. i'm nt ready for school. i'm not ready for everything.
i'm avoiding everything. but i noe. i wont shirk off my responsibilities now. i know i wont. hafta chiong for red cross for the last few daes. hafta do thousands of things. pls. for gdness sake.
argh. wad am i doing?!
QUEK YING QI!!! WAD'S WRONG WITH YOU!! WAKE UP!!! U ARNT GETTIN ANIEWHERE NOW!!! I BEG YOU TO WAKE UP! PLS! SINCE THERE'S NO TIME FOR YOU TO CATCH A MOVIE, SCREAM, CRAP, DO WADEV U WANT, JUST TAHAN AND GO AND FINISH YOUR HOMEWORK! YOU HAVE TO SETTLE SOME THINGS AS WELL. SO, WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!
u sec 4 alreadi. cannot be so slack le. ni zhi dao ma!!
i'm goin crazy soon. i cant do things well now. not as if i've done aniethin well enuff. wo kuai feng le. bye~

camp+drillstickstrip+hp+sec3s+ndp+syf+speechdae

heiya.i tink i'll blog abt camp other dae bahz. no mood le. hahha. den syf and ndp and speech dae, nt sayin much bahx. when i feel like den mybe some other time bahx. =) den oh yesh. i was blasting musi and chtting online junnow, and the sec3s came knocking at my door!! yes! my house! i ws soo shocked to see them!!! ahahaha. i thot wad happen can! gave me a scare! haha. den they were like, panting, sweating. [must be the whole flight of stairs. hahha. ] den finally, dey said, farewell. hahha. i was soo touched. "maám, we're here to invite you to the farewell, maám" they're soo sweet kkz. soo nice. persoanlyy!! door to dorr. den chat wif them for a while, den knowing that my hse is messy, i still asked them, do u want to come in? hahaha. oh yesh! now den i rmb! i din offer them drinks!! oh no! stupid la! haha. den i opened the envelope. hahaha. and i pulled out the thingy. i was soo moved kkz. the thingy inside is seriously very very very nice. the tracing paper thingy, the golden thingy, the paper, the words filled with their sotong-ness. hahaha. so funny so cute yet so touching. i see the paper, i see the process. i cn imagine how they do the things bahx. hahaha. thanks sec3s. u all were great. sorry if i had been too over to u all in camp. it's for ur own good. hahha. sounds naggy. but nvm. den u all made me realised soo much things. and i reallie miss red cross. i feel so blank. but ctually not reallie. must zi xu jia you=)
and went out with sooming to return drillsticks todae. and i reallie cannot continue le. i'm like tearing. i dunnoe wad to do.



i'm.. byebye. i'll get back when i'm feeling better.

camp+drillstickstrip+hp+sec3s+ndp+syf+speechdae

heiya.i tink i'll blog abt camp other dae bahz. no mood le. hahha. den syf and ndp and speech dae, nt sayin much bahx. when i feel like den mybe some other time bahx. =) den oh yesh. i was blasting musi and chtting online junnow, and the sec3s came knocking at my door!! yes! my house! i ws soo shocked to see them!!! ahahaha. i thot wad happen can! gave me a scare! haha. den they were like, panting, sweating. [must be the whole flight of stairs. hahha. ] den finally, dey said, farewell. hahha. i was soo touched. "maám, we're here to invite you to the farewell, maám" they're soo sweet kkz. soo nice. persoanlyy!! door to dorr. den chat wif them for a while, den knowing that my hse is messy, i still asked them, do u want to come in? hahaha. oh yesh! now den i rmb! i din offer them drinks!! oh no! stupid la! haha. den i opened the envelope. hahaha. and i pulled out the thingy. i was soo moved kkz. the thingy inside is seriously very very very nice. the tracing paper thingy, the golden thingy, the paper, the words filled with their sotong-ness. hahaha. so funny so cute yet so touching. i see the paper, i see the process. i cn imagine how they do the things bahx. hahaha. thanks sec3s. u all were great. sorry if i had been too over to u all in camp. it's for ur own good. hahha. sounds naggy. but nvm. den u all made me realised soo much things. and i reallie miss red cross. i feel so blank. but ctually not reallie. must zi xu jia you=)
and went out with sooming to return drillsticks todae. and i reallie cannot continue le. i'm like tearing. i dunnoe wad to do.



i'm.. byebye. i'll get back when i'm feeling better.

i

=(

hey. i come back to blog later. mama rushing me to go bath and eat. cos later going out. ='( haven blog abt camp and drill sticks. and i want my handphone=( u all still can msg and call and yea, i'm contactable. cos i'm using another phone. but i dun like=( i'm used to my ohone. i feel very insecure without it. see how much i love my phone kkz.. and soo manie things happen=) =( haven blog on jnrs as well. i love my juniors! whoever dares to bully them, i'll make sure u get it from me. hahha. but i bully them during camp=( hahha. nvm. talk abt it at a later time. byebye=( [my handphone] haha. aniewae, byebye=D

camp

heiya. well. e syf is kind settled. but haix. if they dun accept den they cnnot join le. hmm. aniewae, wahh. hp left with one small bar. and me goin to slp le. wanted to blog todae. but e campfire thingy dragged my time and pulled down the spirit. den erm, busy wif the syf stuffs. and now, feeling scared for them. trying hard to sort out things in my mind. but apparently, i'm too tired now to do anything, so, i going to slp le. tml den blog bahx. jia you bahx. and my hp ='( perhaps this whole weekend..haix. nvm, i can change diff phone. hahaha. arhz..smart. hahaha. aniewae, me goin slp le. but not realie in e mood=( bye!! [milo for supper, i shall go prepare it moiself (-_*) ] hahaha. byebye!!

syf

oh crap manx. nvm. this is just erm. haha. i dunnoe lar. aniewae, e syf!! tml!! full-uniform!! oh god. haha. and it's at guang yang sec. 830am must reach. but i told them 815am lar. oof.a nd now. nid to find out how to go gyss. oh manx. haha. hopefully, dey're able to make it dere lar. tml's e selection. wad if hq scold them, dun accept them?! oh pls. opefully dey can go! i'm faiing my job as a fdic. as a qm. and den u all like that, make me very..feeling very bad lar. i mean. erm. i nid do any job well, yet.. i dun deserve it. aniewae, woof. i love my grpmates manx. hahaha. thx kkz!! we owaes inform each other abt updates, esp fd. hahaha. den everytime will have last min stuff cropped up. haha. thx b3=) and my mama thot i joining syf den she was like goin to scold me le. haix. smtimes, camp gives me a reason to stay away from everybody. haha. except for campers. and i wont be restricted to do stuffs, like for eg ystd. if my parenst go campfire, do u all even tink i can mend e fire?. haha. e time is wrong. no time to chnge. brb. bye.

camp

heiya=) just came back home from tkgrcy annual camp 2006!! haha. about half an hour ago bahx, amthin cropped up. and haix. it's that campfire thingy. so..had to settle a little. ahaha. nvm. it aint gona dampen my spirit. hopefully. haha. and guess wad?! syf is tml, and i din bring my charger home, and e extension wire is still in school. and how am i gona charge moi phone todae?! it's like struggling with 1 small small small bar. and i mean it. seriously small lar. so, now, me very nt focus in dis post. hahaha. woof. camp's over. i miss camp. i like our camp this yr. i dunwana leave camp=( haha. aniewae. hmm. jia you bahx. and i wan my phone=( i'll feel insecure or uneasy without my phone. haha. cos i sae b4 to moi dear jnrs..haha. tt i'm on call for them for 24hrs. hahaah. in case aniethin happen marhx. woof. but now!! dey mite nt even be able to reach me! argh. why am i soo blur! argh! den e syf fax oso din bring back, den muhd is helpin me col royce lar. so sorrie=( but thx for asking me if i nid help=) haha. thx arhz! and i forgot. eh. eh. nono. i dunnoe. i v blank now. haha. feeling scared for them now. tml gt syf trng!! argh. and my cadets ='(
and erm, tink i come back later den post on camp bahx. wait till i settle all the things first=)
syf--(find out details frm muhd and den tell jnrs and sarah, must make it for tml. jia you!)
ndp--(nominees. haven select yet!! haha. shall go choose later, den erm, find out e details oso. and muhd is helpin me. haha. see! b3!! HeY! kNOcK kNOcK hIt ReBOuNd YeA!! B3! we love stella and sarah ma'am! haha. )
speech dae--aisyah hurt her hand, which means she cant be speech dae commander. oh manx. i dowan lar!! hmm. and dun tink i can find anie sec4 le. how?! relax relax. but how to relax like this!!! haha. arhx!! calm down!
den hafta settle accreds--committee, who shall be my fdic!! hahaha. and QM!!! ahaha!--oh manx. b3 peeps are seriously crapping. hahaha. meet some of them at campfire!! =) in fact, onli 2 of them. hahah. at nite if u all cant slp, msg b3 pple, i assure u they're awake. haha. den loong time ago, dere was once b2 n b3 hafta pass msg for some outing, den i sent out mass msges, and everyone was toking at like 12++ to 1+am. hahaha. but i like moi hike comm too!! haha. but hike comm nt reallie in contact lor. hahaha. elaine, far east, and some of them are in b3, so noe them betta larhz! like xiqing n shahidah. haha. i miss ulp='( dun wry, must work hard to join vip!! hahaha. and hmm. me oreadi soo dark le. afta vip, i'm gona camouflage in e dark manx. hahaha. how?! haha. nvm lar hor=/ aniewae, brb. gona eat [first proper meal since camp] and bath!! den i'll be back to post on camp!! hahaha. okie. cya later=>

hmm

oh yea. how i noe how le. hahaha. and yea. junnow was typing in notepad, haha. blaa out everything=) everything=) everything=) in moi mind, deep in moi heart, and i sorted out ome stuffs le=) =) =) haha. and i'm no longer lost. i noe wad to do le. heex. and ooh. jut came back from buying buddies and whistles and stuffs lar. wahh. never belittle 40 **. hahaha. hahaha. my hand arh, bleed liaox. so unbelievable. hahaha. nt exactly bleeding but erm. bleeding inside?? haha. i dunnoe how to sae lar. hahaha. and woof. so manie things haven finish, i mean my hmwk. hahaha. doubt me can slp tonite lor. hahahaa. i can onli handle last minute stuff=) is it a gd thing or bad thing. hahaha. woof. =) haha. feeling so relieved now. finally manx. settled some things tt's like deep deep inside for such a loong loong time=) hahahahaha. and i saw wendy when i was buying buddies and i was practically hiding from her!! hahah. first time in my life buying 40 **. haha. den i was so picky lor. standing dere so long choosing **. =/ hahaha. but my grandma went wif me!! haha. so nt so pai seh lor=) hahaha. my grandma so farnie. hahaha. thx ah ma!! =) den we went to buy fodd and stuffs den go home le=) den erm. oh yes! my phone! so fast low bat. le. everyone'spaming my phone. hahah. but i dun mind=) cos can reset e plan le marh, as in. gt 500 free msges marh, den ast month was like. my gdnes. exceeded like dunnoe how manie lor. hahaha. must ren ren ren (again, it's tahan in chinee, nt smone's name hor!) ahahaha. den oooh. camp countdown: about 14 hours' time. but in about 8 to 9 hrs' time have to wake up and prepare le=) hahaha. oh manx. i;m like so excited for camp!! haha. but me very very scared!!! i cant afford to screw up. =) hahaha. few more hours onli. die lar. wad if i miss home=( haha. wad if smthin happens=( hahhaa. me wrying abit too much hor. hahah. first camp we handling marh=) must jia you kkz everyone!! hahaha. todae all sec4s sure cannot slp one=) hahha. maybe some can lar. hahaha. but me. mite nt be able to. tho i shld be tired. hahha. reminds me of fdc n talentime lor. super duper tired but jus cant get to slp=) hahhha. wooof. [it's nt dog bark lor!! hahaha.] oh no. i haven bat yet!! oops. haha. but my squad hor. very late den bath one. we're like soo crazy lor. hahaha. hahahhaha. =) gt once we bathed at 1+am ritex. i tink so. haha. den cain everyone at like midnitex den have conference den soo manie pple on da phone together. hahaha. soo farnie lar. den all of us owaes end e call like, ooh, my parents staring at me like dunnoe wad lik tt le. hahha. den we put down phone den msg n msg. hahhaha. happie fun time wif squaddies. haha. wooof. haix. nvm! think on e bright side. camp, we can talk thruout e nite le!! hahaha. dun tink abt farewell lor. hahaha. wooofff. haha. i feel like goin out on sat or sun. shall go find pple=) but depends on my mood afta camp=) hahahhaa. yippee yar yar..yippee yippee yar. oh crap. i'm goin crazy soon=D hahhaa. and my desk here is like soo messy lor. hahhaha. wwwwwwooooooooooooooffffffffff.. hahhahaha. dunnnoe how to survive carrying soo manie tings tml manx. big big sling bag, back pack, uniform, buddies ( i betta make sure they are safe =/ hahaha. ) plus.. still gt wad? haha. dun tink so. hopefully i can squeeze EVERYTHING inside. hahahhaha. den oh yes. yingqi, rmb to bring charger..that long long long thingy. haha. so tt everyone can charge at e same time. rmb to bring ur zippee log. and everything lar. hahahhaa. yes. packed lunch. oh dear sam will hafta taste my cooking. hahaha. shld be nt bad bahx. jus tt smtime me can be soo careless as to forget to off e stove =P. den burnt e food. hahahaha. oops=/ hhaha. oh my, i'm like no longer lost. oh yes manx. hahahahahahahah. hmm..oh yes. fine lar. hadi sir is nt fierce to me lor. hahahaha. muhd went to tell him i guess. den he wrote in his space to commander of squad A and blaa blaa. haha. well. RI guys. hahaha. and yuliang, if u happen to see this. guess my mind manx. hahahahahaha. ooh aniewae, cya in camp!! e camp shall be a successful one. especaiily campfire!!! hahahaha. nice song!! i blog afta camp bahx. hahaha. maybe i'll come again tonite to blog. =) cos most prob wont be able to slp=) hahaha. and i'm 24 hrs oncall=) i wont leave my hp de. cos i sae b4 to moi jnrs marh, gt aniething jut call me, no matter wad time. hah. so, my hp is on my bed. =) i noe radiation kills brain (-.-'') hahaha. and oh my, wad if i'm lost. hahaha. cos e schs reach le, den if dey dunnoe how to come in, im supposed to go bring them ritex. if i din rmb wrongly. hahaha. den wad if i get lost!!! hahaha. wont lar. wooff.. yeah..me reallie feeling super relieved now.cos i settled some gr8 big thin in moi heart. hahahahahaha. =) must get good results yingqi=) must pass out VIP kkx!! hahaha. ooh. my grandma go home le. ooh. aniewae, eh..CYA in camp in few hours'time=) jia you bahx=) bye!!

heh=0

heloe=) smthin's wrong wif blogger. but i managed to post still. hahaha. but abit weird weird de. haix. me kinda bored now. i noe gt alot of things to do or. like hmwk, pack bag, buy stuffs. woof. but me too lazy le. haha. but i will definitely do by todae de, haha. cos deadline is todae. hahaha. ooh manx. tonite sha be anudder slpless nite, den camp oso nt slping. wahh. how to survive manx. haha. and hmm, anieone wwants to go out on sat or sun? since todae is tuesdae already. den wed to fri gt camp. i feel like goin to one place to scream my lungs out. hahah. but eeyeh. haix. just feel so sianx lar. anieone wants to go jus gimme a call lor=) cos me realie sick of stayin at home=( camp's in about 23hrs time. but 10++hours more to set off to camp. hahaha. at nite, i'll be like so bored lor. can we ue hp for personal use one?? haha. cos i'll get soo sianx at nite lor. if i cant get to slp which is like 99% confirm i wont slp one. ahaha. later my eye black black go campfire. hahaha. but it'at nite, so no one can see. soo. aniewae, i'm like going to chiong my hmwk le=) haha. physics first, den emaths, den hcl, den eng, den chem. den e rest see first bahx. hahah. dose 5 more impt. den afta camp must study amaths. dun tink i droppin amaths=) hahaha. soo many pple tellin me nt to drop haha. see. i heed advices of frens instead of teecher=( is it a gd or bad thing. hahaha. nvm lar. jia you hbahx. swing swing swing. lalalalala. haha. swing swing!! =) hehx. so bored. nvm. me go do hmwk le. buaix buaix=) everyone rmb to bring chrger for phone for camp!! cya in camp!! bye!! and i tink this time round, e time is correct, it'11.00am.

woof!!

heiya. wahh. 5 more hrs to getting up and prepare for camp. and erm. 9 more hrs to camp commences. hahaha. jia you bahx. haha. still need to do up moi uniform den can le. yeah!! hahaha. and camp is todae le!! haha. cos it's 12mn now. hahaha. yeah. printing stuffs now. heex. hahaha. aniewae. hmm. suddenly feel dead. why?! haha. i dunnoe. dun tink i;m dead. but jus have e feeling that smone is dead. as in. bored or too wahh. blank out. lazy. tt sort of thing. and when i sae smone. i dun refer to anieone., cos i oso dunnoe who's that smone. hahaha. oh wells. i'm crapping. i just feel weird. i mean i'm quite hyper lar. but scared. but yet. i have tt feeling. smone's nt in a happie mood. yar. i dunnoe lar. very weird feeling. haha. nt reallie nt happie but. erm. nt in a happie mood. haha. geddit? dun tink u all understand, cos i oso dunnoe how t describe it. haha. woof. few more hrs to camp. which means i already have less den 5 hrs of slp. den still need to do up uniform. haha. and erm. need to erm. fill bottle?? haha. it's betta to get ready lar. haha. den i'll be done packing. oooh. haven go cook rice leh, cos tml need to fry lor. den oh manx., need to wake up at 5am. hahha. but nvm lar. =) it;s for camp. and i'm feeling hungry now!! hahaha. how?! hah. shall go find myself something to eat. oh wells. i'm supposed to get fat b4 campfire rite. oh manx. haha. but dun tink i grew anie fatter =( haha. oh manx. i'm crapping AGAIN. hahaha. dunnoe whether can use phone during camp anotx. but shld be can lar. as in for personal use. ???????????? wo bu zhi dao. wwoooooofff. oh nonono. less den 5 hrs, need to prepare uniform. hahaha. need to eat. hahah. need to rehearse day1. hahaha. need to preapre for moi fd lesson. need to do some hmwk. hahaha. need to SLP!!! how?! hahaha. nvm. "dere's no such thing as no time" hahaha. quite true lar. u squeeze out ur own time lor. =) *waiting. printing.* wooof. soo long. hahaha. kuai dian leh!! haha. afta that, shall go do moi uniform bahx. den go eat?? hmm. but i v hungry. nvm lar. ren. haha. den afta uniform is eat den CHARGE PHONE!!! YES!!! it's like no bat le. hahah. den go cook rice?? yea. wooof. den fill bottle.

uniform
boots
beret
cook rice
fill bottle
rehearse
charge phone
eat
sleep
fd lesson
hmwk
no more le rite??? hopefully=/


oh manx. wad if i forget to bring stuffs tml?! hahaha. relax dear=) ok. must start doing all dose tthings mentioned le=) Cya=)

camp's near

yeah!!! haha. nice dae todae!! =D wanted to wake up at 4am den was like soo sleepy. hahah. so i went to bak to slp lor. as usual. i'm just soo lazy lar. den i gt up and 8+ and was like oh manx, still nid to go sch for camp prep=) den set off. hahaha. den on e bus, dere was dis bee that was chasing me arnd. hahaha. den yea. reach school le. den start work. den we practised dnce for soo long!! but it's like sooo funny!!! we dancedd repeatedly crazyly but we nt tired and we nt sianx lor. hahaha. den had kunch at 3++p lor. hahah. so hungry. hahaha. b4 that was briefing den it was sooo farnie lar. hahahha. and i said: den we go eat debrief!!! haaghhahaa. den i din even realised!!! hahahaha. den we went VS to eat n chat and work out our log stuff. btw, VS = video shop . hahaha. nt victoria sch. hahahahahaa. den yepp. we decided to go kembangan cc instead of home. hahah. cos we super sure our jnrs will still be dere. hahah. we noe our jnrs. if dey dun finish smthim, dey wil just stay put and die die oso must fininshone it's good lar. but t least tell us marh. was a bit disappointed lar. haix. =( but nvm bah. we expected it but we cant accept it. haix. nvm. and nadia apologixed to me. hahhaa. thru phon. cos i sae reach home tell me. den she sae sorrie. haix. i nuthin to sae manx. den ooh, ew walked to e bus stop deree. den reminds me of ulp lor. in e morning. hahaha. den pau board e bus fisrt, den left me , tang and je. hahaha. crapping lar. den je ask me wad time. and tang ask me escape how much, dey asked at e saem time bahx. den i took out my hp, reads e time and said: $5.43. hahahahhaha. and again ! i din relised!!! hahahahahaha. 5 dollars and 43 cents. hahaha. it's supposed to be 5.43pm. hahahha. aniewae, yar, den go home le lopr. aniewae, CYA in camp!! =)

break-out

hahaha. anyone help me to break away from this day-to-day reality!!! oh manx. farewell's coming. camp's in 3 days time. memories flashing moi mind. studies are on moi mind too. haix i want to live a day. onli a day or maybe onli a few hours where i can think about NOTHING and enjoy moiself for once! onli a few hours=( haix. but it's not gona happen lor. haix. but i reallie want that few hours!!!

and yar. i am going for camp. my decision is set. i dun care how my parents are goin to scold me. i'm just. going for camp 2006 and it's final.

and i'm like blasting songs thru e comp. haha. and seriously blasting. hahaha. and junnow was listening songs while doing my homework. and yar. junnow was feeling so.. wahh!!!
"i will find my way . i want a different way. .......you shi hou shou shang you ren xin teng, ku le you ren an wei. xian zai yu dao kun nan jiu yao xue hui zi ji mian dui. i will fin my way. i want a different way. nothin can stop me now. no mtter wad they say. kun nan shi yong wo de jian qiang he nu li, yong gan mian dui, yong xin qu dui, gan jue jiu dui. i will find my way. i will find my way." haha. that's "my way". i dunnoe but smtimes it's kinda motivational bahx. den haix..never had a dream come true..thank god i found you..the reason..forever love..hen xiang ni..goodbye..hui you na me yi tian..love me..liao jie..zhi zu..tian kong..dang ni..
haix.. all this songs arh.. are killing me manx. hahhaaha.. "music intensifies one's mood" that's wad mrs hoe saes. hahaha. my lit teacher=) hahha.

seriously arh!! i want to have that few hours!! ahaha. cant stand it e lar!!

and to tang, soot, kirstie and pau..i dun tink it's wad lar. u noe wad me talking rite. =) i dun tink so. so, dun tink me even hanging on. hahaha. but i dun dare to sae give up. hahaha. smile-e best remedy.

well. i must cheng xia qu. hahaha. JIA YOU BAHX!!! =( =)

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heiya. me still in dead mood lehz. how?!! haix. haha. watching pianist now. as instructed by kirstie. hahaha. but i forgot to watch junnow. so watching now. hehz. hahah. den i wan to sae smthin!!! ahahah

THANK YOU LAWRENCE SIR!!!!! THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH SIR!!!
for rushing out our RC t-shirts for us!! and for sending it to us during cmp day 1!!! thank u sir!!! thx loads sir!!! thanks a zillion sir!!!! ahha. thank you sir!!! =D

okayx. back to dead mood le. hahaha. haix. hmm. haven start doing my hmwrk leh. oops. hahah. and i feel so.. wahh. haha. hmm. sec 4 yr den suddenly so. ahem. haha. =) shh.. if hve a wae of making me hyper!! rmb to do to me!! hah. make me hyper!! make me crazy abit more. i'm soo dead now. =( no mood to do anything. haha. and i saw e tree trunk figurine todae. i know i sae b4 le. but i really saw my tree trunk figurine. it costs $65.oo. haix. so ex rite. haha. *hint: my bdae coming!! ahaha. kiddin lar. it's like soo ex. hahah. pau chia! our pact. hahaha. =X
haix. jia you bahx. oh manx. cya..bb~~

=(

so sorrie bahx, dis few days very =(
suan le bah. =)
tt's wad i'm teelin myself. haha. and oh yesh. forget to sae junnow, u noe we went parkway rite, den me n pau as usual, went hallmark. and guess wad. i found e tree trunk figurine. i was so.. i dunnoe. it's nt called tree trunk but love one another. haha. reminds me of syf. and yar. haix. "shld i cry or shld i smile?" haha. quoted from this poem. found it long long time ago. hahaha. tree trunk. =(
i've been looking for e figurine for sooo long. was alwaes feeling down when i walk out of hallmark/ precious thots without seeing e figurine. but. now that i've found it. it was suposed to be symbolic. but erm. apparently, my smile doesnt come. hehz. shen me ban!! hahaha. i dunnoe wad's wrong. =(
tree trunk. i've finally found it. but. hmm. haix. haha. dun tink u all understand, perhaps pau mite understand rite!! haha. she found her puzzle thingy oso. but the tie will forever be gone. *nv had a dream come true* haix. hahaha. and we read this card. e message. it's like.. soo sweet.
e pic shows 2 squirrels standing across the river. they separated by e river lar. den e top right hand corner's msg saes: u're dere and i'm here. know wad it means?
den u open e card and it saes: either of us are standing at e wrong place.

den e bottom saes: miss you.



oh my. i dunnoe but i find it soo. soo sweet bahx. haha. e msges in hallmark are soo sweet lar. hahaha. =) haix. jia you bahx. no worries. cya in camp=)

yoohooo.

yea. did some of my fw stuffs. hehz. came back from sch n pp. hahaha. i was soo lazy lor. but recently me beri beri slack=p. hahaha. and is my last post beri depressing??? ahaha. tink so leh. oh no. haha =/ oh well. i'm crapping le. cya in camp in 4 days time=)

='(

heiya. time now: 2.30am. few hrs later i'll be going sch for camp prep. i dunnoe but i jus doesnt want to slp. hmm. i'm ='(. reading e past few posts den saw how we prepare for talentime dance. fdc06. i dunnoe but this 2 things are nv gona get awae from moi heart. it's like e process. dance. we practised soo hard. we met soo much troubles. e song nt completed. gave up trad dance. wanted to kick out jnrs. nt getting support from squaddies. dnce pple nt involved in it. no full strength practices. e bruises. they're still on moi knees. e ankle ones nt so obvious le. and sec1 fdc injury is stil on moi ankle. bruises. all our hardwork. i miss all dose practices. and went for dance. cant stand e stage settings. did some mistakes. danced. and when over, things feels realie over. e dance. i noe it's a 10 yr history but. we practised soo hard. we get scoldings from parents, teachers asking us to focus on studies. some heck-carish attitudes. but. in e end, 3rd. tt's all we get. but. it's over. looking at e void deck. looking at this time now, looking at e living room, thinking of how i stayed up to plan dance. looking at e school. void deck. classrooms. how we danced in dere. and till now, some pple noe us le. 1 sec2 gal came up to me and said. u're e one dancing last time rite. bring me to life. i was amazed bahz. den fdc. nt long ago, we practised almost everyday, how i break down, worrying abt fdc. once upset with moi squad. when it's like geting nearer to e comp date, how pressurized i am. when e squad cant fhave full strength practices. when our unit short of manpower, when others are fghting nd instead of standing wif me, getting pple awae from moi squad. i felt so lonely. i mean. e heats one. i dunnoe. i noe atiqah wants me to haf full oso. den but some wants moi squad pple. i noe i wasnt alone. e whole squad's standing behind me. and i have to ttake e lead. it's like i'm fighting for moi squad. e pressure was reallie gr8. i insisted all e wae. no room for improvement. and i gt moi full squad. yepp. woof. den went for practice. how i finished my food first, how i did things fater den normal just to get to moi practice. even me myself was amazed. den how i strained my voiec e dae b4. how i din finish e prc with keluar baris. how e last prac ended. how e nx dae when everything was in me. when i noe i have to stand. when e answer to everything is " ask ying qi". when "ying qi" is heard every second. how we rushed there. how we stood there. how scared i was stnding at e gate of bendemeer sec. how afrid i was to take e lead. how frightened i was facing every school at bendemeer sec. how everything seems so..raw to us. and we were brainstorming and thinking of everything. and everything. how we bring up e morale. how e raffia string. how we went for UI. how everything goes. how pressurized i was by shane's commanding. how frightened i was when doreen maám talks to me. how hard i was trying to memorize e commands. how we stepped on to the parade grd. how we fall in. how i hold up e paper. with my shivering hands. how i culdnt see e paper properly. how i had to hide my shivery hands. how i had to overpower e resta commandings. how my squad have to follow and focus oni in my commanding. how they execute their drills. how i did my mistake. how we finish off first. how we get awae. how we in hall. how we waiting for results. how i went up. how dey cheered. how. how. how lost i was when i noe we got in round b. how frightened i was when i saw "A". how freaked out i was when hadi sir said if i dun get my squad back in 2 minutes time, we'll get disqualified. how shane n hao helped me. how dey pulled me thru. how we did round b. how many thousands mistakes i made in round b. a few steps. i JUST have to march a FEW steps onli a few marching steps. oni if i move my legs. how we finish round b. how we ate shrooms. how chanel, yuliang, haoning, priscilla came. how we drink. how we chatted. how everything happened. how i salute during rc song. how we heard we were in top 3. how when i went up. how everything happened. how we bersurai jump. how we cheered. how our spirits soar. i saw them all. my memories. that's for red cross. den for erm... i dunnoe. i'm at a loss. giving up. my decision i guess. dun tink it'e positive one. i dunnoe. i'm alwaes putting myself off with e negative guesses. and yar. why isit like that?? i dunnoe. hmm. well, dun tink i caring bahx. i dunnoe i dunnoe. just like tt lor. wad can i do rite. den must jia you for studies bahx. jia you!! and yar. haix. it's diff to put down e past, gimme some time. and taking on e new challenges ahead. i've failed in doing so. but i wont give up. 1 month minus 1 day to farewell. less den a month. i can finish my job. all accreds. QMs badges. i swear nt to leave unsettle stuffs to my successor. regradless in fd or QM. and i'm gona have a bklet and den jot down all e "how to do" stuffs. haix. pull up e standard. we must kkz. jia you bahx. it's 3.00am. tml nida wake up at 8am. gona slp le bahx. headache le. and i want to gain weight asap. too skinny le. everyone's telling me that. smone tell me how to get fatter??? haha. well i guess that was e first "haha" i said in dis post. well. camp. farewell. i want to get e ranks. and now pau n fil, u all noe how mafan to do QM's job?! hahaha. jia you bahx. all my jnrs shall pass their accreds!! =) jia you bahx. "goodbye."

feeling blue

heiya. just read tang's and sam's blog. haix. everyone's like..i dunnoe. i jus wana sae this: we all dun wana leave tkgrcy. but pple still have to move on. it's hurtful, it's pain. it's tormenting us. but. we still have to hang on. no matter wad. at least we've memories. laughs. cries. everything. it's gona be tough for us to leave. perhaps that's the reason why i want to join VIP, i dunwana leave. but alwaes rmb this. once a tkgrcyian, forever a tkgrcyian.






that's the stronger side of us. i noe. our squad. we all put up a strong front. cos we dunwan e rest to worry. wo ming bai. but the deep deep us. no one ever understands. tht's my squad. tough on e outside. but e inside. it's a never-ending well. no one ever noes how deep it is.


but no matter wad, i noe i cant we cant bear to pull off the strong side of us. so, i still hafta sae this: hang on. it's gonna be sad. heart-wrenching. tough. tiring. tormenting. killing. everything's gona be fine. dun wry. we're tkgrcyians. once a tkgrcyian, f o r e v e r a tkgrcyian. and we will forever be part of tkgrcy. tanjong katong girls' red cross youth. we'll still meet up smdae, sm where, smtime. we'll nv leavve each other. we're dere for each other. sec4s..rmb our pact kkz. hahahaha. let's make a guess who will turn up with ahem ahem. ahhahaha. everybody... jia you. wo men ke yi de. we're tkgrcyians. nothin can beat us. nothin can stop us. we're the eternal flame of passion. diamonds under pressure. we are from tkgrcy.



also, to dose, if u all dun undeerstand us, dun dampen our spirits kkz. =) thx.




everyone's blogging abt it. but dun tink i am. dun pull awae e strong side. hahah. jia you bahx!! =) cheng xia qu.

yepp

heiya. well. camp's near corner!! i'm kinda excited for it lar. but the me jut cant get any motivation to start work!! i dunnoe. everything's piling up and i'm nt clearing them. aix. very fan this few des. haix. haix. soo sorrie if me rude to u all or fierce to u al. or anything unpleasant lr to u all. hahah. haix. and me scared leh, shld i drop amaths?? hmm. i dunnoe=( nvm. dun tok abt this ar. and camp!! yeah!!! haha. shld i get excited abt it?? hahaha. dunnoe if i allowed to msg during camp anotz. hah. camp prep. omg. eeyeh. hahaha. aniewae!! u noe tkg has dis singing comp for sec4s den for moi class. e red cross pple kana sabo-ed to join!! den like forced to join lor!! eeyeh!!! cos last time got this chem assignment den we sang. den now gt singing comp, den they sabo us to go!! eeyeh!!! ahah. bt nvm lar. hope dey dun mind us nt getting aniething. haha. but gt sam n kirs n cera n aisyah. hahahaha. so, shld be no prob. ahahaha. too bad, got me. ahahaha. aniewae. ooh. me junnow was thinking of farewell ='( and yeah.. haix. and i start doing m stuffs le =) and erm, yeh. haix. oso, todae jnr's first trng. haha. hmm. nuthin to sae mnx. but shd sae dey okie le lar. their first trng eh. but the juniors arh!!! I MUST PULL THEM BACK DURING CAMP!!! hahahaha. beware juniors!! and todae we scolded them=( nt as if we want lor but they keeep losing their camp stuffs den owae sec4s have to find them, den yar. haix. den see their faces like tt, i wanto cry le lor. eeyeh!! dey look so down. den. haix. i dunnoe wad to sae manx. argh. scold already cannot go tok to them, cos if like tt, den nx time scoldings wont help. but well, it's tough being a senior. u have to scold them, den maybe they will rmb it or smthin like tt. den. aiya. it's jus tough being a senior. haix. i'l try to make them cry in camp. haha. sounds mean rite. but i want it to be memorable to them, must force out their potential. if not arh, we mite nt choose e correct pple lor. haix. must force it all out manx. i sae sorry in advance first bahx. haix. it's gona be hard on u all during camp, but it's gona be even harder. when u all cry, ur dear seniors' heart are bleeding=( serious. haix. u all must jia you and dun make us scold u al. i'm gona be unreasonable during camp. haix. no choice lar. hahaha. hmm. jia you bahx. reallie hafta force it out. so, haixya. i'm sorry!! hmm. and i haven prepare things lor. hahaha. but shall hmm. i dunnoe. go plan out bahx. and SOO MANIE HMWK!!! EVERY subject has AT LEAST 2 things to do. at least lor. oh manx. and it's all tedious one=( every teecher sae dey give us 2 piece onli, very easy one lar. u just need a few hrs to complete them. den we have soo many teechers sayin same thin, den yar. how to survive like tt!! hahaha. 2 very ittle onli wad. den add all up, it's like wahh. hahahha. nvm lar. can practise lor. but where gt time.. hahha. must go squeeze out time manx. and i want to rest!! ahahaha. sure can one lar. hmmm. and i saw moi cousin doing fd tdae. hahaha. Yea!! ahaha. aniewae, hmm. lawrence sir haven reply for the T-Shirts leh. how?! scared!! wad if cant get b4 camp!! oh manx!!! and the enrolment badges!! and the ranks!! oh manx. i'm gona stop listing out things. hahaha. ARH!!! and still got accreds!!! ah!!!! and anieae!!! e juniors want to haf fdc party on 10 april!!!!! they're soo sweet manx!! 10 april!!! hahahaha. 10 april. =D all dose reading blog one shld noe wad dae isit lor. hahahaha. YEA!! 10 april!!! hahaha. it's a monday!! so, sun will stay up=) hahahha. lucky 11 april no ca lor. hahaha. if nt arh. aiyo. hahaha. yeah!! 10 april. BUT. luth gt csp and lim needa leave for tuition at 345pm. hahaha. i tink shld be 345pm lor. cos last time fdcp she oweeas leave at 345pm=) hahahaha. sigh. so, 10 april cannot leh. hahaha. den i suggested 14 april, gd fridae!!! hahahaha. den dey still gona check it out! yeah!! i want fdc party!! hahaha. nt reallie party but gathering lor. hahaha. but moi pocket gona get burnt. oh manx. haha. nvm lar. but spend soo much $$ for fdc =X. maám sarh paid for drinks lor. thx soo much. hahahh. den me paying for lunch!! yeah!! our shrooms. den for party oso. but party gt sec4s to share cost. hahaha. but ure stil alot one lor. hahhahaha. bt nvm lar. nce in a lifetime. heex=). hmm..jia you bahx. smone motivate me!!! ahahaha. JIA YOU!!!

hmm.

heiya. well. got gd new i noe. ahahaha. well. soaked kerosene todae. eeuueekk. i ate kerosene. it tastes weird. nt purposely like duh. but simin lar. hahahhaaha. she threw e cup into the kerosene den e kerosene splashed onto me!!! ahahahahhaha.. hahahaha. gd thing, my eyes were quick enuff to close manx. hahahaha. den eeekkk. hahahhaha. but guess im fine=) si bu liaox=) ahahahaha. den she felt soo bad lar. ahahahahaha. dun wry. it's nt ur fault. ahahhaha. den yar like tt bahz. me cant reallie rmb wad to blog abt tode. oh yesh! i gt my results, super extreme lar. got 3As but 3Fs. ohmanx. wad is this lar. haha. nvm. must jia you bahx. and to e ret, dun be discouraged by ur reults kkz. must jia you bahx. =) jia you jia you jia you. ooh. and i gave awae my first heart. hahaha. haha. e straw one. to.....................................................................................................................















hahah. my juniors!!




hahaha. their hike is kinda cancelled or in a nicer wae postppone. dey cried. dun wry. my dear juniors. haha. tt's wad all of us have to go thru. jia you bahz. =)


and camp is arnd the corner!! hahaha. and me tinks me voting filza for director's award!! hahaha. jia you bahx. and jia you bahx. dun cry juniors. u're gona make me cry lar. dun wry. dun cry dun cry. ur seniors will foreva be here =) jia you bahx.

cont

to cont. todae's caathey's bdae. aiyo. me sounds dead rite. haha. perhaps me just tired bahx. kkx go le. must start clearing the whole big pile i've left behind since end of jan bahx. ever since fdc starts, me seems lagging, but i dun mind=) and now, it;s time to catch up. guess i cant slp tonite le lar. soo many tings to do. must end the term nicely,, so, yepp. nid to clear ALL my things. gdness. it's like 1 months' stuffs to be done in 1 or 2 days. help manx. hahaha. nono. cannot help. haha. jia you bahx. *nv had a dream come true* tt song, can relie make me..sob. hahaha. reallie=) jia you bahx. soot!! work towards our goal. still have 30 more 3-pointers to go!! b4 farewell. oh manx. 30 leh. and now that we cant seem to shooot like last time. oh no. cannot cannot. must cheng gong =D jia you bahx!

oh god.

heiya. todae. well. feels abit unlucky tho. haix. but nvm. jia you bahx. and woof. so manie things todae. eeyeh. and we had lit screening. much ado abt nuthin. haha. e story is NICE. it's so..wahh. so poor thing. so sweet. but dere are some DISGUSTING scenes. haha. erm like. what e artists call them: arts. haha. geddit?? hahaha. so hungry lar. haha. as in in avt tt time. well. i'm getting azier manx. oh no oh no. and pau's nominated for outstanding student award!! hahaha. chairperon marh. every yr oso e same one marhz. haha. and yar. like tt lar. i dunnoe lar. feel so bored?? but me gt soo manie things to do. haha. haix. jia you bahx. nt in e mood to tok abt aniethin le. jia you bahz. =)

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just went to doreen ma'am's webbie and OH MY GD!!! oh manx. ARRHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm like feeling soo embarassed NOW!!! oh my!!! so..shy. so embarassed. oh god. help. how. so pai seh le lar. i dunnoe whether to cry or laugh!!!!! to hu eva out deree!!!!!! dun laugh!!!! ahahaha. but i'm laughing!!!! oh manx!!! oh my!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahaha. so pai seh le lar. nvm. relax. relax!!! aaaaarhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot realx lar. i'm a gal lar!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh manx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahaha. hahaha. jia you bahz. oh manx. oh my god. oh my!!!!!! nx time no face go rc activities le lar. hahaha. HOW?! hahaha. jia you bahx. =X

woof

heiya. me die le lar. oreadi gt 2 teachers telling me to focus in studies and keep asking if i'm too involved in rc. well. hmm. haix. like lit. oh manx. sigh. dunnoe wad to sae. and oh shoots lar. haix. and things are piling up. must clear them one by one and camp is like.. nx week. 1 more week and few more minutes?? yea. oh manx. must jia you. day 1 commandant!! yeah!! ahaha. but i must be VERY fierce to them and oh manx. how to?! hahha. especially afta fdc. oh god. i dunnoe how to be fierce to them. and we annouced to the whole sch todae. fdc. dance. cac. fac results. oh manx. i dunnoe how to face pple le. like erm. rcy noes le. and now tkgs noe le. oh god manx. den now gt more pressure bahz. results cannot be bad. later dey tink is cos of rc den throw rc's face lar. den conduct muz be gd. oh god!!! and hmm. hahah. feels weird. and e award s still too good for me. i dunnnoe ar. afta soo mani days of reflection, i'm stil living in 4 march. and yar. i dun tink i deserve it lor. haha. and yepp. it belongs to everyone =) to all commanders. so no worries. haha. hmm. haix. i dunnoe how am i gona step down. like how am i goin to put rc behind me and focus on studies. i'll just keep thinking over how isit one lar. oh manx. how?! hahhas. jia you bahz. must reallie start sorting out the whole pile of things lor. but i reallie very lazy!!! how!! i becoming lazier le. can le. haha. and i v long din play bball le. waa. haha. sooming!! our pact!! hahaha. and filza!! u dun call urelf done when..ahem..ahahahahahaha..and todae was abit farnie lar. just tt when i gt back moi lit ca. i kinda. erm. nvm. muz jia you bahz. den ooh. we learnt dance todae!! ahaha. and e dance is that toot toot one. haha. but it reallie made us laugh until like. i dunnoe wad lar. hahaha. haix. ooh. and can u a hear e song?? haha. we believe we can march..blaa.. jia you bahx. smilezz. =)

wooh

heiya. todae sch. wahh. me reach so early ar. and hahaha. and tm nid to go early oso. dey gonna present prizes to sch and to me. well. i still tink it's too gd for me. i mean, arh. i dunnoe lar. den i feel v bad when haha. when e whole world noes. me beri shy ar. hahaha. and i guess rcy noes le. den tkg is gonna noe tml. oh manx. and me failed thoroghy as a QM manx. and fdic oso. haven do alot of admin stuff. well. u noe. i dun like to do admin stuffs smtimes. hahaha. when me nt in d mood. wahh. can reallie die forcing me to do lor. hahha. and haven plan dance yet. oh manx. hahaha. and hey friends. i'm here. face all challenges that's given to u. jia you!!! ooh. todae SS was soo farnie. hahaha. yepp. and jia you bahz. haix. jia you. =)

JOIN VIP december intake!! and take FOOTDRILL and OUTDOOR ACTIVITIES!!!

and like e whole world is asking me why i take oa larh (-.-") hahaha. if got time den maybe i MITE take First aid. maybe onli lar. and YEAH!! heard that oa can go obs, and can go overseas!! heex. for hikes. and must keep going bukit timah!! YEAH!!! hahaha. i like to hike bah. maybe. =) and yeah!! fd!! oa. hmm. hahah!!

mistakes

heiya. btw, some mistakes to e previous post. hahah. i changed yuliang's name. and btw, kirstie help us take bags oso. den erm. sam fell and as she was holding on to trophy, she raised up her arm. and so, she hurt her arm. and den erm. yea. and e part on huifen's uniform!!! ahaha. so farnie!! i meant her coat cover. sounded a tho her uniform droped as in, yar. on her. ahahahahahaa. den yepp. hahaa. some minor secrets lor like fil and nose. hahaha, and many many more lar. yep. =) and we gt silver for our video awards. =)

footdrill comp. 2006

footdrill competition 2006.



i dunnoe how to start off moi blog. i dunnoe wad to sae. well. it's unexpected. i din expect all this at all. well. seriously. i din expect at all!!!

first, start off with the previous nite. o3o3o6. i slept at 2++am. and woke up at 4.44am. hahaha. 444. heex. i was polishing my boots. =) and doing all the admin stuff. =) den wahh. call pple until like siao ,manx. den haix. sorrie lar. i din call ex maáms earlier. den some canot come cos dey make other plans le. sorrie. den erm. my mama's bdae. so, had to eat cake and kfc. but i ate one tiny slice of cake and i eating alot of them now. and for kfc, i onli eat 2 shrooms. haha. den i drank honey and eat strepsils and stuff lar. den i feel so bad. din reallie celebrate. din buy preent or prepare aniething. haix. but ever since i noe fdc is on 4 march. i noe i wont do much on mama's bdae. hehz. sorrie. den in the evening. at nite especially. wahh. alot of msges. sent and recieved. all so touching. and i tink our batch made alot of frens. gd gd gd. and den u all got read previous blog rite, din iron uniform. haix. den erm. lie on bed. i culdnt slp at al. i noe i'm tired and sleepy but i'm just scared. afraid of facing everything. i'm reallie terrified. horrified and yarh. but i noe i'll hafta face it and furthermore. the leader. so, i have to lead. many under me. i have to lead. so, i cannot give up. i noe i cannot. and i noe. alot are caring to us. my squad are suppporting me. they backed me. so, i din fall. friends are giving me tabs on my shoulder to boost my confidence. i know i have to do it. i am a leader. i cannot fall. =) den just feeling sleepy and get up at about 5.05am. den went to make my hair and stuffs lar. my hair was so hard lar. and yar. prepare myself for all i can. den set off. supposed to meet filza at a certain time at bedok mrt. but we din in e end. haha. so, i went to take bus 33 to school and i was the first to be there!! YEAH!!! haha. for fdc. i finished my food the first for once. for fdc. i reached school the first for once. haha. nice one. then, juniors everyone reached le. then, immediately, we went to iron uniform and everything lar. my agenda was all out of order liaox. den i was so scared we'll be late. but finally, we get up the bus. and the bus trip was so short that afta preparing ourselves, we dun have time for cheers and stuff. so, i was pretty scared of the morale lar. then, atiqah called. i was telling atiqah how scared i am. cos. she understand lar. den i realllie want to cry le. i was reallie very very very very scared. i dunnoe how scared i am. but i'm just afraid. i'm scared of screwing up. and we went to register. and yar. woof. den we went up the classroom. so smll lar. den have to squeeze. den we talked about everything. and verything single thing. and yar. did some marale-boosting speeches and stuufs. we just know that the spirit is there. then, had to get ready for uniform inspection le. wahh. soo soo soo scred manx. den i saw doreen maám. and i was thinking. she's in uniform. so i have to diam them and greet rite. so, yepp. i did. lucky i din hasitate. woof. and heard that we were the onli squad that greeted her. heex. YAY. hah. then, get ready for uniform inpection. and the onli commanding that can distract me was shane's one. in fact, i could onlin hear shane's commanding. it was good. very deep. low. and solid. yepp. nice. so. i was rather scared lar. den smmore during practice on 030306. my commanding went hoarse. so, i was very scared smthin like that happen again. so, i din dare to shout out during u.i. haha. u. i. onli. dun starin voice too much lar. haha. den doreen ma'am walked to me and sae; why u so mean to urself, face the wall. and so, i asked for pemission to shift. yepp. so i was pretty scared lar. den we shifted. den erm. i was given command sheet. and i tried all my best to memorize and den was busy thinking and deciding whch one is wrong and stuffs like that, den i keep asking questions lar. cos got one part is they must march in ranks one. not by files. so i was pretty scard. but the command list is usually wad we practised. so, i was quite confident for round A. in fact, i was very confident we can do it. for round A. and no memaras!!! eeyeh. haha. den we were at the staircase there and we did our raffia string cheer softly. hahaha. den our fdc cheer oso. heex. and "we are a squad". haha. den we go out liaox. i went into wrong box. but gd thing was. we din panick. heex.den must tell them be careful of raffia string=) ahha. so coincidence lar!! rafffia string!! ahaha. den upon reaching there. i glanced at e audience there to see where are our supporters. shld be easy to spot wad. hahaha. green. hahahaa. den the competition commenced. haha. and our assessor was indra sir. haha. nt used to saying sir. haha. he was joking with me. as in. not jokes but friendly. haha. i asked qns. den he sae: "orh..u din pay attention during briefing rite.. ahaha. " haha. den e whistle blew and i started. my hand was shivering rigorously. i couldnt see the number of command i was at. (tt was e state of my shiver) i was shivering til i could nt even see the number on e card. and i noe. i cannot let the judges see my shivering hand. cannot even let my squad see it. if not, they will be scared. so, i held the card with 2 fingers. co two fingers den the contact between hand and card not tt great. so the card din shiver that much. den i can see the numbers clearly le. heex. den afta that. my hand was shaking!!! not shivering but hking le. den i cannot ee the commands on the card!!! and so, i pressed the card down on my waist there. to keep it still. so, can see the commands betta le. den tried to memorized some. like i browsed thru at once for a few. den just take the risk to memorized some of them on the spot. yeah. lucky it was correct lor. haha. den reached the wrong command liaox. so. i emphasized as in. i dunnoe wad i do lar. but just. erm. teling them in my mind that this is a wrong command. heart to heart. command using ur heart. not ur voice. nor ur throat or diaphrgm. use ur heart. they can hear u. den yepp. glad that they did it correctly lar. heex. den i carried on. and at hormat kekiri hormat. got no space. so i did some commands. and it's like , it reminded me of cac. when we answered the questions on the spot. i got that feeling again. just come up with that on the spot. good. den erm. we finish liao lor. we were the first school to finish. i was so scared lar. like everyone still doing. den onlin my school finish. den nt long afta. vs finish oso. den afta that, heard haoning's commanding. so, tkss was the last school to finish bahz. yepp. but everyone was still within 15 minutes. good good. then, end of round A. i noe some of them were feeling kinda sad cos they did some mistakes. but obviously i didnt sae it out. but it's the fact. all of them did wonderfuly good.den dey look not so down le. yeah!! i was reminded of last yr when afta round A. den we were told that e ma'ams were disappointed or smthin ike that, den i told myself, this is so not gona happen in my squad. =) and so, everyone was great. good. then, we went up hall to wait den we were moving heere and there. cos we want to watch the comp. den one ir sae cannot. den we move back. den other sirs sae can, den we move to corridors. and i saw yuliang and muhd. nice one. their commanding are nice=) muhd's commanding is so ri. so, me no comments. haha. the ri-style. den yuliang's commanding. yepp. nice. smthin like shane's. nice nice. can distract me one. haha. den sirs ask us to go back and sit down. so, we went back. and i decided to tell them not to go watch already. since it's like so messy. and it'll onli disgraced tkgs. so, everyone just have to sit down=( haha. sorrie lar. i dunwan the squad to be incomplete marhz. den we dunwn to sit down. haha.previously in the classroom oso. tkss sae dey nt sitingdown. but obviously dun copy them lar. den like so not decisive. yepp. okayx. back to hall. den more schools come in. den woof. yar. continue toking lar. den sarah. haix. mm. aniewae. den they ask us to take our bagss in the classrooms, so me, aisyah, sam, soot went to take. wahh. soo many htings. den we were busy stuffing everything into our hands. hahaha. den keep dropping things lar. but nvm. we did take them. den wah..wad a long wae to the hall manx. den halfwae thru, huifen's uniform dropped. den had to pick it up. den some bendemeer gals actually asked if we nid help. so nice lar!! hahaha. but since we were onlin a few steps to hall and if dey help, everything will fall apart. so, it's ok=) thx bendemeer gals. den had to walk behind hall and den come out from the side. den eeyeh. rc guys so not gentlemen one lar. we were struggling with soo many things, den dose commanders sitting infront, mear us smmore. dunnoe how to help one!! ahaha. smmore is my grpmates lar. shane, muhd!! ahaha. and yuliang oso!! dey sit so near , din offr help. aiyo. but nvm lar. we did it in e end as well. heex. den wahh. e bags and stuffs looks so messy!!! ahahaha. den settle down le. den dey hui fen's button came out. den fil had to change her button with her. ahaha. obseen lar. hahaha. den dey call out for commanders le. maám yu ching den brief us on how to go up to take the certs later. den the commanders stood dere for like i dunnoe how long. like near to an hour. according to shane and nudder gal. i dunnoe wad's her name lar. ahah. den haoning was telling us her stories. ahaha. den we were talking abt round a and stuff lor. hahah. den talked abt everything under the sun. ahaha. den finally. 1230pm le. can start le. den the guests have to give speeches. haha. den when dey sae tkgs, e cheers were so loud=) heex. nice nice. den afta. went to sit down lar. den dey annouce district one. i was so scared that our sch doesnt win aniething. i was seriously very very scared lar. den they sae 3rd is tanjong katong... secondary school. and i was like oh manx. wad if dun have aniething. den dey sae 2nd placing: Victoria schol. i was like OH MANX. wad if reallie nuthin?! oh god!! den dey sae champion is tanjong katong. den everyone was screaming le. haha. and woof. luckily. but it caught me. i was kinda shocked. den went up. and i wasnt reallie smiling at e cam. my face feels numbed. hahaha. den i shook his hand twice. den i saw alot of pple jumping!! ahah. ex-ma'ams, maám sarah, maám yan ying. maám suyin. maám jocelyn. and alot other ma'ams. haha. den haoning and meet up wif haoning and shane at e back. and guess wad?! dey were superb. afta taking their trophies, dey went to memorize floor plan of obstacle maze. dey were soo sure we will get in finls. den dey went to memorize and guide me along everything. i dunnoe how to thank them. i was so surprised. den i dunnoe wad to do. den dey just came to me. and yar. guide me slong.

"the mazze is very small" "the maze must change ranks for ur squad" "make them do yang tinggi" "see where dey are first" "must change ranks arh" "be careful kkx." " very squeezy" "must be loud for them to hear" "jia you" "can one lar"

all dose above are wad i rmb from wad shane and haoning said to me once i meet up wif them. when everything happened so..sudden. they gave me a pat on moi shoulder. and said tt to me. i was soo. i dunnoe. i mean it's so heart-felt. i mean when i'm in a lost. dey actually supported me. thank you. reallie. thank you. thanks. u 2 were great. both of u were with me when i was lost. thank you.

den i went back wif them to sit down, den u noe girls in ful-u very diff to sit one. o i sat down, den so loud lar. haha. bieeah. ahaha. den just as i sat down, den i herd my squad screaming, den e supporters scremed, i can hear tang. and den i din noe wad happen. i din pay attention to the stage. the emcee. den i heard her saying "quek". den everyone was looking at me. den smone gave me a push. so, i went up. it'll be so embarrassing if go up wrongly. ahaha. den yarh, i onlin knew wad was happening when i was shaking hand with the guest. den i dun tink i smiled at cam. i din noe wad was haooening. no time to react. i dunnoe wad face i was giving the cam. oops. den i went back to sit down. and i still in state of shock. even now. i dun tink i can forget tt moment. i dunnow. i tink it's too good for me. and yes, when i walked down the carpeted thingy, i see nuthin but a yellow human jumping towards me. it's maám sarah. ahah. she was jumping arnd. hahaha. den she hugged me. den i saw anudder person runniing towards me. it was maám yan ying. and anudder full-u person walking briskly towards me oso.
and tt was maám jocelyn. i gave maám yan ying a hug too. den maám jocelyn was in full-u, so she sae she cannot hug. hahaha. i was so.. no reaction. hahha. den walking a few steps more, the ex-ma'ams came and: "yingqi! wad did u do?! how did u do it?" haha. hahaha. e maáms said tt to me. hahaha. they were shocked too. hahhaa. den maám stephanie : " hurry! dun tok to her liaox. u hurry run back. later sekali got more." hahaha. den i ran back, with my mind nt processing that there's no more prizes. ahaha. den i ran. and i was at e back of e hal. den i dunnoe wad i was thinking. just in a twirl. i was still scared. and i dunnoe. den dey read out e 8 names. i was soo. touched. unbelievable. den went to prepare and maám yan ying brought me to cheat. hahaha. den round b. woof. e squad did very well. i tink our belok was superb . i dunnoe. but i saw their belok. dey reallie did it all well!! but me. i dunnoe. i tink i let e squad down for round b. i din do well for round b. but our link was there during round b. i wanted them to slow down, and just as i was thinking, dey reallie start slowing down, we could talked in our hearts. and kirstie was thinking and telling me to give lima langkah, and i felt smone guiding me. and i reallie gave lima langkah. the spirit, the heart to heart link is dere. this is e link i want. dis is e onlin thing tt i can compare to ma'am qiutong's yr fdc. maybe it's dis link that has brought us soo far. further than i had expected. and den yepp. i guess i'll had done betta for round b. nvm. it's all over. and yar. standing dere. it was scary. i was shivering. and i went up and i screwed up my marching. oh god. nvm lar. it's over. and den. yepp. did our raffia string and everything. jia you bahx. den went to change and eat and everything lor. at PS burger king. haha. den like tt lor. went home wif maám yan ying afta tt. haha. den reached home and i was so tired that i slept like that. just like tt. my bun net still on me. but gt up in morning to bath=) and yar. our shrooms lunch. and drinks. haha. and smthin happened to fil. hahaha. hahah. den hadi sir was so fierce to me=( ahaha. den like tt lar. well, basically, e above is wad happen lar. den e following shld be my reflection bahx. and sec2s wrote a card for fdc. and when we take picture, e maám chased ri awae for us. hahaha. gd one. see. rc guys are soo nt gentlemen. hahah. and sam fell=( casualty award to tkgs. haha.


footdrill competition 2006.
very memorable. i'll miss dose trainings. i'll miss my squad. i'll miss everyone. and i'm reallie very grateful to everyone. like. my squad: alisa (my right marker), hui fen, luthfiyyah, isabel, syafiqah, lim xin yi, lee xin yi, xiaowen, mumtax, jasmine, nadia, syazana, sooming, aisyah, samantha, kirstie, filza and me =) my supporters: sec1s, 2s and 3s, and 4s: tanglin, pauline, cera. and my ever-greatest friends: haoning, shane, muhd, yuliang, yoges, madeline, desiree, shwu yueh, xiqing, warren and many many more. but i'll especially like to thank: haoning, shane, muhd and yuliang. thank you all very very much. thanks. also, the ma'ams. all the maáms, the sirs and everyone there!!!! there's too many to be mentioned. thank you all of u. for ma'ams, must especially thank: MA'AM SARAH, MA'AM Yan Ying, ma'am yik ka. ma'am yu ching, ma'am jocelyn, ma'am suying, ma'am qiutong and MANY MANY MORE. THANK YOU!!! i'm reallie very grateful to all of u. i owe it to u all that i ca bring my squad soo far. and best commander. smthin tt i've been avoiding toking abt to pple. i feel so.. i dun tink i deserved it. i tink it's too good for me. it's wae too good for me. and yar. it belongs to haoning, shane, muhd and yuliang oso. they were great. thank u everyone. and nt to forget, of couse it belongs to my squad. and also, nt forgeting to thank my squadmates, especaiily: ATIQAH, jeannie and si min. and EVERYONE. THANK YOU. i love all of u. i reallie LOVE all of u. thank u. and jia you bahz. also, everyone were great. nobody failed s a leader. noone. everyone did it. i repeat! NOBODY FAILED AS A LEADER. we're all part of footdrill competition 2006. we been thru it as red cross youth. fdc 2006. rcy! we did it! no body failed kkz.

* f d c r c y 2006 f o r e v e r *

oh manx

ahh. i din bring home my iron!!! arhx!!! arhx.!!!! oh manx. i brought home my uniform but i din bring back the iron. haix.nvm. tml bahx. oh manx. how can i be soo blur!!! oh manx. typical sotong blaa. jia you bahz.

heiya

heiya=) just came back for fdc and todae my mama bdae. so, later we eating kfc lar. i mean like fdc's tomorrow. haha. but no worries. me just eating shrooms=) hahah. and woof. oh manx. and i cried again. i;m soo sorrie ar. i mean i tried to stop it from coming down. and i reallie dun want to but i dunnoe. it just came rolling down. i din want to cry infront of u al but i cant control them. i reallie dunwan but i cant stop lor. haix. cos i dowan u al to wry=) and muz jia you kkz. yepp=) and my voice went horse todae lar. oh manx. i donooe how!! arhz!! and i haven order for kfc. oops. hahaha. den haven call maáms and yeah. waa toking to juniors junnow=) heex. jia you bahz. and hmm. it's like 12 hrs and 18 minutes left. and i shal send msges out to fdc pple. in rcy. in rcy. which means from other schs osso. but shld be diff msges for commanders. hahah. see first=) ahah. wahh. i'm ssoooooppppppeeeeeerrrrrrr scared manx. oh dear dear. jia you bahx. =)

hehz.

heiya. hmm. well. me cried todae. hehz. cos. erm. dun tink is fdc. maybe partly lar. haix. 2nd time le. i rellly wantted to tok to some red cross frens lar. but i scared i irritate pple. haha. so, i din call lor. and thx sarah. hahaa. haix. maybe smtime like now. i do nid a shoulder =( haha =/ nvm bahz. and hmm. i safekeep them but i often take them out. haha. browsed thru them. hahaha. oh manx. haix. argh. ying qi. cheer up gal. hahha. hahhaa. jia you bahz. i'm sorry hor. maybe i culd have controlled myself. i dunnoe. but just soo sorrie hor. jia you! ke yi de. haf faith. haha. jia you bahz. =)

2 more daes!!

heiya!! 2 more daes!! JIA YOU!!! hahaha. as i said, me nt saying much thing in blog marhz. hahahah. jia you kkz!!! ~lalalalalalalalalalala~ hahahaha. JIA YOU!!! (^.~) JIA YOU ORHX!!!