Back From SLO cAmp! =D
"the absorbent mind" workshop wheee! =)


whoever i am, is enough to give to you.

trust.
the risk to trust means alot.

100% of everything PER PERSON in a team.
and not divided responsibility.

specify response, complete response, 4 parts sequence.

SHEENA! another example to follow =)
and before we end the workshop, she told me somethinggg! and i was...... so touched. =: )
emotionally safe, trust, allows the other party to be who they really are.

control function of a leader.
there's so much more for me to learn!

just make that very first step to express your true feelings.
to acknowledge somebody. to thank somebody. to hug somebody.


through this workshop, got alot alot closer to more councillors, housecommers, classmates, schoolmates. and some re-bonded! and i'm really grateful for this chance =))
i fulfilled my purpose! a purpose i set for myself before i entered the camp, to give and to share. and i did =) oh yes! and also... it is us to decide whether we will enjoy the camp or nots. and we did. =))

saw many different styles of leadership controlling.. many points to pick up from one another.
i love this workshop! "the absorbent mind"


that was some of the many many things i've learnt. and the camp.... er. no need for the stayover actually. hahas but narhhs! just a chance to have some crazy times at night bahs.
ate MAggI mee at 3am with mars, malina and nani! chatted =)
ohh but the TWo main groups din interact much.. quite a pity!

after breaking camp.. went JoaN ma'am's birthday partyy!
played a little games and had much much fun! =)) and JUNjiE bOUght Us PreSENTS from cambodia! =D i just love being with them. they keep me emotionally safe.

plugged in my earpiece on my way home(: feeling supperrrrrr sleeepy. zzz
hmm in the bus, sometimes when i find myself staring blankly into the scenary outside, i feel fine and not affected by anything that has happened or is still happening around me.
but when i shut my eyes, there's this overwhelming feeling boiling inside, yet i dont know how to describe it. and i will usually open my eyes quickly to feel fine again..
perhaps only when i'm the only one around, when i'm prepared to deal with it, then will i let that feeling flow out.

sounds confusing? familiar? hahs. that's me.
and all i have to give to you, is enough for you. =)

GEE I HOPE THAT IS UR DOG AND YOU FIND IT BACK QUICK! *prays*
please let the dog get back to gee.



OH i KNOW OF a FEmALE FLIrt and it's AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CANNOT STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and another Male TiMEr PLUS PLAyer. YUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

why cant they just............ haix. WADEVER>




i feeel very very much happier when i see somebody's smile =)
hmm. been thinking alot alot alot recently,

i was on the bus home today.
supposed to go my grandma's hse to bath, makan and pack my bag for camp,
but i suddenly miss my cat so dearly! that i headed straight home.
i wished i could see her that instant and give her a tight hugggg. hahas. and soooo i went home, bath in de temporary toilet, not having my dinner... it was like nothing could stop me that moment! haha.
hehs. perhaps i love my cathey x)
and i really do.


looking at every single person on earth, everybody has got a special story to tell.
their own story.
everybody deserves to be praised for going through tough times.
and i believe everyone is strong, not just a certain handful of them.

smilez =)

when you smile to a kid, he/she will tell you whether you are truly happy or nots.
if she smiles back at you, your smile comes from within.
if she doesnt smile back at you, you are putting up a smile.
it is not always true, but your heart will tell you whether the baby is teling the truth of yourself.

because your heart doesnt lie to you,
just that sometimes when it wants to protect you,
it hides from ya.


wahhhs chimalogy!! LOLs.


TML GOT SLO CAMP. should be quite slack and fun i hope. LOLs. but narhhs i've still got my 10 core values =))





Say Goodbye - Chris Brown

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
.
.
.
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

='(

yAys! back from NebO! =))
the game cafe at amk hub whees =D


went with GAY and AH NI. sidifen joined us after his work.
the three of us were noisy!!!!!!!! but we had mUCH FUNNNNN ORDERing food HAHAs.
the person keep laughing at usLOLs. so cutte.


they had the HUge transparent swingg dere! felt so safe and warm inside!!
den jing ni keep hitting the table and chair. LOls.



ordered cheesyy fries and GOdilah's DesSErt. HAHA. SOME PEOPLE CALL IT THE GORRIlLA DESERT. aaaahhhhhahahhahas. it's this hugggee 8 scoops ice cream!! and we played TABOOOO. So ExciTINg AND dUMB! wahhhahas.




we were supposed to watch hORton! den we spent so mUCh time at pEpper lunch LAuGHING and chatting ... till we missed the movie timing! so we went nebO instead. hahaha.


been laughing soo sooo hard at wonderful stories!, aNti SHAKE HAndphone! LOLLS. imaginary fORk, ESTHER COW, RELATIVES SALMON blahhhblaahhh! =D
added salt and pepper into our ICE LEMON TEA. MAdnESS.

backtrackk a little..

pretty fun with my classmates at WHITESANDS! LOLs. yani and me were so shocked at the lightning, the train, ahhhsss! hahas. den met up with maam yanying at parkway to shop for jnrs present and discuss about farewell chaletttt!! =))

GAY came to look for us and we had SO SUpER mUCh fun ChOosingAH KWOK's pREsent! BERThA kWOK!. LOLLS ** shake shake shake! hahahas.

thurs to fri - farewell chalett! night bbq + many food + games + reminiscing past!

fri - squad outing!!!

sat - bcls course with batchmates!! some cardio lifesaving thing. that super cool machine! where they electrify the heart thingie. haha actually i was kinda lazy to go, but since so many batchmates going, i shant miss it! =D

oh YESSSss. look at what we bought -

awww. x) the female one's with me! gUEss Who's got the GAY oNE?! oops, i mean the MAle one. HAHAs.

noiSyy............... >:(
renovation!. like before and during my block testt. eeeyer.

ahahas dunno how many times have i said i wanted to go library... lols, i din even go once.
hahas. but i went burgerking ytd! =)

hmmm back from unit camp...
something unforgettable to mention.
my brave girl cried ='(
when i gave her a hugg.. and it almost made me tearr.
it was as though i felt what she was feeling. quite a painful one.

my footdrill ic,
my alpha2 mentee,
my fdc commander,
my unit chairman
my chief commandant
my brave junior


another cheerful girl to mention,
also my footdrill person,
my unit vice-chair,
and how she treats things with her brightest smile.
she never gives up =)

and the other one,
who cannot control her laughter when she sees me.
HAhas! can be really fierce to her juniors. wohh~!

hmm im proud of the 5 people =)

i like to work with maamyanying! though extreme working styles, i need her brain to help me solve things and her experience. and we always stand by our views with FOOD LOLs.



actually, motivation is a form of pressure.
self-pressure.
when you believe in somebody, it is having expectations of that person.

and that is how diamonds are being moulded - under high pressure
this is our unit - high pressure in the form of motivation.
tough, infact, very tough.
but the process is a fruitful one.
diamonds in the rough.

MOOD SWINGGGGGGGGG NOWW * sToRms Offfffff!

laalalalas~~

i shall watch my movies after march block test.

100000000 bc - guozhong and the rest!
water horse - joanne maam and the rest!
hahahs. (MY water horse, sidifen's water HOSE. lOls.)
and MAYBE horton - WHoEver, maybe GAy.


the heart never tell lies.
but sometimes it hides.
and i dont understand myselfffff =/

wed -
7am at bedok, off to camp day 1!

thurs -
8am to 10am RnE briefing!
about 3plus, camp day 2 plus CAMPFIRE!! where i'll meet my squadmates and batchmates.

fri -
5pm blOod donation den dinner!



i wont score badly for march bock test!! irritating teachers..i'll SWEEP UP YOUR jAws.
so focus quekkk! BreAk the INerTia. =)

ahhas. ear painn LOls.

me and esther's on the phone nowww!
at like 3am in the morning. SiNce 1plus am. omg. hahahs
talking about that disgusting topic and many similar stuffs! hahaha that dumb GAy. lOLs.

we went to view blogs, friendster, talk about everything! and how esther is eating up her tables and chairs and any other object in sight. ahahhas!
gonna play msn games now! hahahs. ahhhs crazyyy.
some WEIRD Puzzle game! HAHA

oh my yingqi must get back to study mood! tml morning i shall go library LOLs.
that's a rare sight.

oh spent my entire afternoon with kelly zhu mei zhu! hahas at bedok. wahhs!
at first i thot it'd be quite awkward, but totally not!! hahahas.
so crazy at kfc! met ahboy and mak's class.

gp paper was kinda tough today! =(
thankyous SAMANTHA for your encouragement =) really needed that. i love sammie! =))

yays =) i love my squadmates and batchmates =)

some people say waiting for someone you love is foolish.
but i think, it is not totally foolish afterall.

the action seems foolish because you think only about yourself.
because waiting for someone slows you down and it just leaves you nowhere.

what if you think about the person you love?
keeping by his side and protecting that special someone
is the last thing you can do fOR him/her.

but it must be done moderately, not in the expense of falling in again.

promises are made to the bond in relationships.
it is not made to the people.
when the bond has passed, the promises leave.
it is not that we break our promises but that we dont have the chance to fulfil our promises before the bond left us.



=) just some thoughts about these often-confusing-stuffs that make some people so emo. =)

ehh. my maths test never get ZERO! i got FOUR. ahhas..

it feels really wonderful when the exco sit down and solve probs. WHooTS! i likee! haha.
we're gonna have our Project CirCle after MArch blOck Test.
and yea yea. i see some hope. many many hope.

oh yes. im on the VergE of RebElling tEachers thRough ActioNS! like seriously..............
BUt hmm. Some really make me so mad mad mad.

tML's our last student dialogue session! and im gonna talk about prom! hahas.
so scaryy! hahahs. but narhhs gonna be fun i hope.

NAnnASnnNAnas~~

i wan to sweep up all your jaws when you see me doing good with (external cip)redcross, (internal)council and StudieS! humph! maam sarah jiayouss too! =)

i dont want to waste my 12 years of education just because of this 6 months.
jiayous squaddies, muhd, shanelim, xiqing, redcross friends, 0707, council, schoolmates!!

yay! just finished my sds stuffs, IM GOING TO BATHE NOW!! ahhhs hahahs. so late. reminds me of vip camp when we bathed in icy cold water at our home-campsite at 2plus am. oh *shivers* HAHA. unforgettably funny!! lOLs.


bahhhhsss. it's been too long.. and you make me so..

EUA and CSA GOLD !
ahhhs!!
this great great big piece of news almost made me tear!

this big piece of news means so much to me during this horrible horrible HORRIBLE period!
*sobss ='))

finally we got it back ! good job to juniors!!
i called filza, called maam yanying, message my squadmates, message MRS YONG!!
we love mrs yong and she love us to bits too! ahaha our loveydovey msges.

this made my dayy, my night and yesss! this is the motivation!
i must do well for my studies.

no more disappointment on my juniors' face this time round!
and happy faces on mY SQUADMATES' face!!



and finally a good good sleep tonight!! nomore nomore nightmares! =D
thankyou jingni! for this morning. when i had nightmare =(

gonna watch water horse with joanne maam !! =))
must catch her in her blazer, make-ups, heels. haha!
gonna donate blood with VIs! me and evelyn must eat more and exercise moree! if not l8ter dat nurse say my vein too small again..!

WhEEEEEEEEEE=)) for this great news that we've been waiting for almost 2 years.
i am going to finish alllllllll my homework tonight, face my teachers tomorrow, work hard for my march block test and alvls!

LOVES MAAM SARAH. many many monkey huggs! and many many barrels of oil to you! for your school tomorrow. WE MUST JIAYOU! we can do it !

went sengkang for dinner!
i miss my god grandmother..

ohoh and i saw hanif and chiencham! hahas.


i got THREE for physics test
and ZERO for maths test.
how pathetic can that be =(

i'm worrying about council... quickquick! i wan to get things outa me.
then i can focus on my studies =)
thanks qianiweni, zhumeizhu and ahzhi =))
haha i like the people but it's just the way we are doing work...

glad that i dontneed to worry about my redcross life.
syafiqah and alisa are handling the unit now =)
yesterday i went hq, met up with the VIs, ahhs =) hearts
no pressure when with them, and felt a little motivated to study, to get my alvls over and done with! so that i can go back to rc stuffs =D
but it feels so...........................now that i cant join them.
world red cross day celebrations - last event before alvls.
oohahaha! i love jianfu sir's ELMO! lols. that super retarded smile. =)

ahhhhhhhhs ssttttrrrreeeesssssssss till i wana give up ='(
but i can do it =( i can do it i can do it.......


i wish you're heree. ='(