this is a tuesday.
starting from about one or two weeks ago, i’ve been receiving bad news and only bad news. news that are really affecting me badly.

i stopped studying, i missed my lectures, i dont do my tutorials, i lost my motivation and i dropped my genuine smile. i realised i haven been speaking to my friends since then. everything’s right inside me. yupps that’s what some call..bottling up. 
i never knew i would be like that,

probably i got to come up with MY conclusion.
no matter what.


yesterday qianwen told me what my very very good friend said to her (:
and so, each time something hits me, i’ll think of what my very very good friend might say to me. when the whole world made me feel like i’m forgotten, i can be sure that,
one very very good friend of mine cares and supports me.


and now i wish that very very good friend of mine to be back in singapore soooon. =’)     

deeep down in me, i think i want to end this.
once and for all.




oh yes! for everyone’s information, i’m gng for services at aldersgate methodist church!
it all started from last sunday. although that v v good friend doesnt follow Christ, but im sure he’ll support me if i say i feel at ease there. =)   i have his assurance for my actions.
i guess that’s what i really need in a friend. 


i’ve been at the huang’s hse most of the time recently, but i guess i might not stay there anymore. because. i’m happier in the east.


i know i got to do this. well. i dont know what lies ahead of me, 101% ignorant of it. but it makes no sense to carry any load with me. as i walk this path, i’ll walk with free hands. we’ll find out what lies ahead soon. no worries, it wouldnt be too difficult to handle.

quek will live and be with what makes her happy.