.helpless.

why?? i'm feeling so helpless now...i dunnoe why. jus have e sudden urge of cryin and i did. for no reason. duo shao ci lei zai yan kuang. wo yong wei xiao di dang. gao su zi ji, zong hui you da an. suo you de zhang sheng gei wo li liang. "wu chu"de cai hong jiu zai yan fang. i love tt part of e lyrics. cos i. tend to hold back my tears and i'm feeling helples now. for no reason. tt's wad teens go thru rite. guess so. it's hard. i cant handle it. maybe. i dunnoe. fd. qm. fdc. tt. studies. rc. i dunnoe. smtimes i jus feel lik e whole world is crashing down on me and im using my last breadth to hod on to it. but i noe. at least sm pple will be always be dere for me. my grpmates. maybe i tok too much abt them bt. whenever wad happens, dey always stand by me and dese r frenz. i count myself lucky to noe them. thank u. why am i feeling so...hmm. weird me. and got my squadmates too lah..bt have little close ones. our squad is fallin too.. we tok abt juniors. wad abt ourselves. we do give excuses too rite. haha. dun tink i did. some put in e best. some push everything to others. i dun feel their existence. maybe have. bt. haiz. sigh. i want e unit ( when i was sec 1or 2; when it's maám yuching's batch leading/maám sarah's batch leading). tt's e real tkgrcy i noe. bt now.. it's all gone. squaddies...cant we get it back?? we onli tok bt din take actions to do anything. actions speaks better than words. *sings let's get it started...let's get it started...haha...tryin to lift e spirit up..without music. my life will be gone. haha. music helps. so...my phrase: *repeat after me! I CAN DO IT!! I HAVE CONFIDENCE!!! squaddies...we can do it. maám jocelyn: "tell urself u can and u really can" this phrase braced me thru. it really works. we can do it!