i'm dreadin myself, over everything, my incompetency. pau sent me smthin den she needa go already, and i actually closed tt window b4 i even open it. am i really tt blur or wad, wad's going on. why so blur?! i mean when it's time to be blur and dun care abt my surroundings, i'm so alert. bt dis type of thing, i'm so sotong. so blur. so walau. cant i be more?? argh!!!!!!!!!!!! wad's going on with me?! stop it!!