I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
but for now
I jus sit in silence
remembering all the memories we once shared
my love grows stronger
together with the hope that one day
You’ll be back
well, it's an extract that i edited. tt's wad i'm doing now. shed beautiful tears. everyone left. it's 12.59am now. saw some pics n it reads some of our hearts. i guess onli u can make me smile from my heart. yet onli u can make me cry from my heart.
doing things. bitten by ades mowquito. i tink. i wont fall sick easily i hope. "i will find my way, i want a different way. nothing can stop me now. no matter wad dey sae." well, that's my mentality for fdc 2006. nothin can stop me now. well, u all can dun have faith in my juniors or dun have faith in us. bt, i'll jia you. i have faith in them. just scared for myself. i want a diff way, every yr, we din get into finals. dis yr, i want to make a diff, just like dance. tho it wasnt wad i want, at least, it's near. and dance, e feeling is still dere. and for everything, e feeling is still dere. i'm sorry bt have to sae tt i haven forgotten my crush.
smtimes. i really cant breathe. my heartbeat just stops and i wheezed. i just cant breathe normally. things i'm doing, hoping to get u out, but, u just rooted urself in my heart. u found fertilised soil n grew. things to care abt but i'm just leaving it alone.
got a sore throat, well, u use ur diaphragm, nt ur throat to command. but i'm still eating. i cant. feeling..i dunnoe. bt i noe i wont feel dis wae few wks ago. wad had caused e drastic change. i want to noe. wad happen. have u gotten urself.. reading "deep" smtimes. it just let e memories invade my brain. well. when i've things up on my hands, i hide under my pillow or blanket and think. "i haf faith in u" it still brings me thru. well. i'm just hoping u're not reading my blog i told u once i tink. hope u forgets it and leave dis place alone. well. it's tiring. very. it's painful. it's hurting. it's smthin that i cant describe. well, the night just makes me. sentimental?? maybe. i dunnoe.
choc chip biscuit. had a small discussion with pau just now. choc chips r nice, tt's why pple tend to choose to eat choc chips onli. but. u cant pick all of them out, e whole biscuit will just break apart. so. we still have to eat the bitter biscuit. so. learn to enjoy bitter biscuit den.
and i want to rant about myself. i feel so so so so so useless. 30 wk plan late. den all dose things we discussed n typing, i oso haven complete all. and my sch work. gd thing not much things to do. and e performance i oso din help soot except for tt tiny bit of 30 wk plan. it's nothin larh. den now not already, haven even get e stuffs for my new job. i seriously dunnoe how to get. and some din reply. wad to do. some invite already not coming. walau. we're nice enuff t invite u l larh. haha. nvm. den we'll have lesser pple and a more bonding campfire. XP haha. it's 1.31am. i dowan to do le.actually i still want. i want to slp n think abt my own stuffs. think about. and sort out my mind. how i shld face all. and i want my memories to invade me. i want my mind to read e reason for e drastic change. and nothin else. and i still keep to my decision. not to XXX again.