our council term ended.

there's just too much to say, that i dont know how to start this blog. hahs.
hmm/. actuallie i blogged the events we'd been through, but deleted it.. cos it just doesnt bring out my feelings. personal msges shouldnt be blogged too.. cos it's only for the individual to read=)


hmm.. council..

at times, it feels terrible when filza and atiqah wait for me to finish my council work, till really late in school.
at times, it feels terrible when filza and atiqah get scolded for going home late becaue of me.
at times, it feels terrible when i need to say "i have a meeting on mon=/ " to tanglin who dyingly wants to watch stepup2.
at times, it feels terrible when i need to push aside rc events that i promised to help out.
at times, it feels terrible when i'm at school camp, instead of rcyc.
at times, it feels terrible when i had to see volleyballers train, something i still wana do.
at times, it feels terrible when i know i belong dere No More. the term volleyballer is stripped. the term power ranger is missed. the red ranger is gone.
at times, it feels terrible when my parents worry about me.
at times, it feels terrible when i'm always the latest to reach home.

in fact, many many times already.
there were times when i continued purely out of Responsibility.
this responsibility made me say no to giving up council..

but this Responsibility alone is not enough to make me say "no" to my friends, to make me push aside events i promised, to make me stop vball trng.
it's the word "people" again.
if not for the 33 of us. no one would be staying in council.

i cant believe we sacrificed our external passion, our external interest, our personal life into this crazy school organisation.

i lost time with my family, my batchmates, my squadmates, my friends.
to trust the 32 other souls who sacrificed the same things as me.
a great great risk we all took.



just a personal thought.
i think number5s are really strong in character.
yesterday was our last day as councillor.
none of us cried.
but this "nobody cried" scenario is much more hurting than everyone crying.

everyone's holding back their tears i guess. cos we dont wana make another person cry...
but when i reach home, when i'm alone in the room....

i'll miss council room. munching biscuits inside.
sleeping in the room, laughing and screaming in the room.
i'll miss meetings, gatherings, our laughter.

i'm scared to go school actually. haha.
fear of emptiness and lost.
but i believe in my council!
When we were in council, Responsibilty keeps us tgt.
Now that we're out of council, Responsibility is taken away from us...
Passion will keep us together. and it's a much stronger bond.
i'l continue to msg in class and give them a huggge hug when i see them in school.

With P.R.I.D.E we serve, as number5s we lead.

YunZhi, JunKai, Kelly, Fazall, HaoYan, Solomon, Joel, Cindy, Becky, JiaYi, YiHao, Sandeep, ChingYing, Rachel, Sidney, Joanna, Sherman, ShuHui, Marlisa, Malina, Hakim, Nani, Nuzurath, YiNing, Bora, JinJian, Elizabeth, Charlene, vincent, marcus, miaoying, qianwen and me! =)